[rmschaver]

I have never spoke of this fully with anyone and am alittle embarresed to share now. I know I will not do justice for what I want to say but feel moved to try.

When I was very young I had a dream, a vision I think of it as a message. In this moment I felt a warm, comforting, loving feeling that to this day I can not describe. There are no words for the completeness or depth of it. I could see all that was. I knew that everything was part of each every other thing. From greatest mountain to the tiniest spec. Everything was wounderous and so incredible so much more than we could ever know. I could move and partake of anything and know all of that thing. It was so moving and I did not want it to end. There came a point when I knew if I went any further I would leave everything I knew and loved behind. I wanted to stay but I also wanted to go. I do not know why but I chose to stay. There is a great deal more to this but I fail to know what words can convey that moment.

I don't know what this should mean but I know it as well to day as I did 42 years ago. Just thinking about it makes me tremble.

What I feel I learned as I thought about this moment over these many years. There is a greater love than can be comperhended and we are a part of that. We are so much more than the flesh and blood or anything of this physical plane. Everything is a wonder if you just look. We will never understand the mysteries of the universe and maybe we are not meant to. There is nothing to fear here. We suffer, we rejoice, all expierences are our very own they are meant for us. To know great joy one must know great suffering. All things pass and in this plane they pass quickly even if we lose heart. Nothing is without meaning and purpose. No one we know and love is lost to us. Once we love them they are a part of us and we joined forever.

Thank you for allowing me to share.