after 9 years of brain injuries the loss of my money my job my house most of my family and all of my friendsalong with the terror of falling asleep which means I'll wake up with my body convulsing and shaking and burning in all different directions has made me kind of docile .the fear that my heart might stop because of my weight and because ofthe spasms and contractions when I wake up is there. I'm 46 over 300 pounds and when I wake up with those spasms and tremors it is heavy burden on my heart and I don't know how long my heart with the thick walls will hold out. I was scared but now I'm like if there's a God great and that there's not I wont know cause I'll be dead. I'm more scared of being alive and having the chronic seizure are tremors or whatever the hell they are. I hope all of us can lose all of our fear and have peace amen