Mark I normally post in the RSD forum. You just popped in there yesterday. Anyways, I have it bookmarked and go straight there rather than through the main page. But for some reason I went through the main Neurotalk page a minute ago and was immediately drawn to this thread title. I didn't see your name - just clicked and read....

When everything is taken from you and you break down and you ask... just ask... our Creator ALWAYS answers. I am bawling my eyes out reading this thread because I know he just did

You folks are amazing
especially you Mark

Guys, you are all incredibly kind and spiritual people.
But God is not finding me or I am not finding him.

The devastation of the past is only surmounted by the horrors the future may bring in my life.

I have searched and searched and see no sign of God's plan in this. or his help.
He may well exist. But even If he did, I have a feeling He and I would not see eye to eye and choose to go our own ways.

I have loved God and hated God in the past. Now, the worst of all, I am indifferent to God.

God bless you all for your faith

Mark. God is there. Believe me. He is real. Pray as sincerely as you can. We have all sinned. Pray for Jesus to forgive you for your sins,and ask Him to come into your heart,and show you His goodness.

The only reason that I'm still alive is because God intervened in my life. If you seek Him,you will find Him. Remember what I said about Faith comes by hearing,and hearing the word of God. I have a New King James Bible. Some people Like the New International Version of the Bible. I have the New International Version in the front seat of my car. I take the New King James Version to church.

Remember that faith,and His Bible(Letter,Book,Instructions)go together. Please try to read the Gospel of John. Take it slow,and easy. If you do this you will find God(Jesus).

I'm being truthful. I've read the Bible from the beginning to the end. He opens doors little,by little for you to find Him. Please trust me,and please be patient. I read some of the Psalm yesterday.

It's like we are the dry land,and the Lord brings drizzle,and then rain to us.
If you read through the Bible that drizzle,then rain will come.

Please trust me. He has made a way for you. BF

Brokenfriend,

you are a good man. I have read many of your posts.

I am not suicidal but I am not afraid of not existing.

I think I am too tired to fight anymore or seek redemption.

and with my weight, other health factors, and my vices, I think that day is not to far and maybe for the best.

But then who knows? human bodies seem to be able to take a beating and keep going.

And if there is a God, I guess he will do what he must when I die.

you area good man for caring. I see your goodness in all of your posts.

Hey Mark. I'm tired too. God will take you where you are. He will hear anyone who calls upon him. Jesus died for you on the cross. He took on our sins so that we may be saved. Will you receive what He's done for you,and what He will do for you?

My life was all messed up. I was a alcoholic for a long time,and skeptical. Not any more,and God really helped me. He will help you. Please let him. Please pray for Jesus to come into your heart,and to forgive you for your sins,and he will.

Then watch doors open up to you slowly,but surely. He will do it. I know that he will. He wants to. God has sent out his messengers. He will make a plan for you,and you will be glad exceedingly.

I can see where he helped me,and steared me around,and opened doors for me so that I could be helped.

BF

I want to also say that God not only exists,he's there for ever,and ever,and ever,and on,and on,and on. In Hebrews 13:8 it says Jesus Christ the same yesterday,today,and forever. Rev 1:18 and the living One:and was dead;and behold,I am alive forevermore,Amen;and have the keys of hell and of death.
So He's .....Alive Forevermore.... It's impossible for God to lie...

I had a blockage where I could not tell anything about the future. I was like a book with the last half of the book ripped out of it. I had no hope at that time for years,but he was working on me. I came to the utter end of myself,and asked Jesus to come into my heart,and save me. He did. Isn't that fantastic!!!

I am so excited about being able to share this with Mark.

Rev 3:20 verse says...Behold,I stand at the door,and knock. If anyman hears my voice and opens the door,I will come into him,and will sup with him,and he with me.

That verse says...any man... You,me,or anyone else. This again is fantastic. This is the good news that you hear about.

So excited. Brokenfriend:smileyp ray:

im thankful that I'm alive after the brain injuries but hope to be able to have a life outside the house again and not suffer physically and thus mentally so much. I prayed so hard after the injury but got worse and worse until I had to quit my job. I kind of gave up praying

Mark I'm sorry about your sufferings. God helps us to cope with life with sufferings. I've been praying for decades to cope with my mental health issues.

I've noticed that God has opened the right doors for me. In the reading of the books of Psalm,and the book of Job in the Bible,you can see that many people suffer at times in their lives. It is written in the book of Job,that He suffered many tremendous troubles,and illnesses at the same time. Job hated the day that he was born at that time.

If we had it made,there would be no need for faith,and love. Most people would become selfish,self-centered,and narcissistic. Faith keeps us going despite the troubles that we go through,and gives us humility.

Don't give up. I have felt like giving up many times,but I feel a need to keep going,and believing. Life is so very difficult at times. Take care. BF

But...but...I do have it made. Love is what makes it so.

Mark. I'm sorry if I put to much pressure on you. I know how faith has helped me,and I want everyone to have the same help. God exists. BF