you area great guy and certainly didn't put too much pressure on me. i am glad your faith gives you so much comfort and support. i can see wanting to share that.

I am here for you too. Never give up. There are people including me who care. If not for these individuals I have met right here, who knows what emotional turmoil I would be in. Had terrible news today, but somehow It is better because I am not alone, I have God, and I have the folks here to help support me. Hang in there Mark. The more helpless we become, the more we depend on those good souls on earth to support us. Write anytime. My physical ailments are not the only that are important on these boards. WE all matter. God is there Mark, he lives in each and ever one of us who cares about another human soul. ginnie

Whenever I feel like my life if falling apart and that there is no way out, I get this calming feeling from God. It's a feeling I know he gives me to remind me that everything will be alright because He is always with me and won't let me down. He has and always will be there for me to help me to find the light I need to see at the end of the tunnel. He has never let me down. You just have to keep the faith and believe with all of your heart that God will not let you down either because He won't. He is always by our side.

I'm curious Mark, have you some concept of God that you hope exists?

It could be, that if I were looking to buy a car and limited myself to American cars or to red cars, that I might miss a very good deal. There might be a nice white Ferrari for sale right down the road for $600 but I haven't included foreign models or white cars into my search and so I've missed it.

If you are still seeking and still haven't found, perhaps you are putting God into a box that is simply ill-fitting.