I just received a call from the doc who performed my husband's recent colonoscopy. They removed quite a few polyps, and he says they are all highly suspicious of malignancy. He wants to repeat the procedure in 3 months - 3 MONTHS? How bout next week?

I'm terrified - he's my life.

May I ask for your prayers? Thank you.

Kathy

this must be so scary for you
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I would imagine if the doc was very concerned tho, wouldnt they do immediate follow ups?

I will be praying for your husband and for you Kathy.


Cheri

somehow i found myself in a place i've never been - i've only been on the RSD forum.

i'm so sorry for what you are going thru. i can only tell you this. my mom went to the dr. last week and she had a suspicious lump that they removed - when she came out, the dr. told her it was cancer (even before sending it off). she will have to do chemo, radiation or both. please know that i am not comparing situations at all, but like cheri said, if the dr.s were really concerned, they wouldn't let it go for 3 months.

i pray for peace for you and for your family.

shalom,
angie

Thanks ((Chemar and Angie))

That's what I thought, but when I asked if this was truly serious, he said "Yes, that's why I want to stay on top of this and repeat the procedure in 3 months." He was kind enough to show a true concern in his voice, so I took him for his word.

Unfortunately, we are at the mercy of the VA - he has no other insurance. I have to wait for the VA to call us for the appointment date. Hopefully, they can explain why they are waiting so long.

extra hugs incase i'm not back online for a few days. sending those prayers for both of you.

(and extra one so those dr's rethink waiting 3 months )

You've got my prayers, Kathy. I also want to tell you that in 1968 my dad suffered major colon cancer and had a successful surgery. He'll be 85 in two weeks and I can't keep up with him.

Thanks Curious. I'm glad to hear you're making it through your hurdles.

Thanks Cindy. I'm glad to hear your dad is doing so well. Go Dad!

I broke down and cried, but I was able to compose myself before my husband got home. A paralyzed faces comes in handy sometimes. I told him the results were suspicious and the test needed to be repeated, and left it at that. I didn't tell him the doc sounded almost certain and only wanted confirmation. No sense in both of us being in a state of panic until we find out for sure.

There are circumstances having to do with race that concern me. He's not white - he's Mexican/Am-Indian. Will he be treated as if he were "just another Mexican," or will he be treated as someone's loved one?

I may be overly paranoid, but I don't think it's the case. I've seen it happen with my own eyes too many times.

He's also at the mercy of the VA system. I haven't heard from them yet.

I've been through this before with loved ones. They were very important to me and it ripped me apart when I lost them, but they weren't my lifeline. My husband is my lifeline.

Praying for you, Kathy!

That must be so hard. May you see God's hands holding you up, giving you the strength and peace you need to face the upcoming days!

You definitely have my prayers for your husband, and for you as well. I hope that they are mistaken, and it turns out to be non-cancerous at all. But gosh, three months is a long time to wait! I know it must be hard, and my thoughts and feeling go out to you both.

Idealist

Thank you InHisHands and Idealist

I used to listen to love songs when I was a little girl, and it sounded so wonderful. I really looked forward to growing up and falling in love.

When I traveled to Denmark as a young teenager, my grandfather would sit with me in the evening and tell me stories of his travels. My grandmother didn't speak English, but she sat with us. I looked over at her while he was talking, knowing she didn't understand what he was saying, and the look of pure love and devotion on her face for him was truly amazing.

THAT was what I wanted out of life - just that! Forget the riches and jewels, I wanted to love someone as much as my grandmother loved my grandfather.

Most of my relationships were a disaster, and I didn't think it was possible - until I met Ray. We've been together for 18 years, and the love has only grown stronger. I've never once regretted my decision to give my heart to my husband. Even when we're at each other's throats and angry as hell, the love is very strong.

I can't imagine breathing without him - don't want to.

Thank you again for your prayers. It means a lot to me.