Sometimes when we are lost...we find the most blessings and gain much more strength and knowledge than when life seems to be going our way. I guess that is because it can be easy to take the good times for granted. We learn the most through the difficult times. So though you are still going through this sad time, be ready everyday for the blessings that God has for you on your daily path. You may be a blessing to someone you meet on this bumpy road. So be open to experience life. Lean on him. He is always there for you.

I hope you find peace soon.

I know the feeling you expressed so very well. I, too, feel lost. I question how long I may have to be here, and yet, I fear death at the same time. Have I been good enough? Here is a story I heard or read somewhere that bears on why we may be here. Most of us will probably never know why. I am not sure how well I can tell this: There was a terribly sick alcoholic lying beside the sidewalk. A wealthy man walked past him, and their eyes met. That glimpse into the soul of the sick man touched the soul of the rich man so much and he gave a vast amount of money to the cause of alcoholism and the homeless. That moment when their eyes met - that was the alcoholic's reason for being here. There's a reason. We don't have to know what it is - just know that it will happen according to God's plan. billie

Billie, that story was pretty

Thank you so much for sharing it.... it means a lot to me...

I have expressed here more than once, that, I feel fear... much fear of... everything.... my future, my present... even my past, and, I have received gret comments from everybody here and, nowadays, I try to keep in mind things like, God is always next to me and, that He loves me and knows what's the best for me and why I need to experince what things at what moment... Sometimes I just forget all this.. and feel lost and sad again...

I just keep asking God that He can help me living !

((((BlueMajo))) Thinking of you!