[bugguy8]

Sorta of a Rant, but more like opening up to help me.

I found a song I like and I sorta feel it was made for me. It's a country song.

On My Highway by Jason Aldean

Maybe you guys/gals could check it out.

Anyways,

Yesterday was an incredibly BAD DAY for me. I have several issue's going on and all 3 produce pain. I have issue's with pain meds, but yesterday was so bad, I broke down and took some even though I paid for it today with an all day migrane as I will pay for it every time I take those dang pills.

The past week, I have broken down into tears several times. It is so hard to deal with the pain anymore. Yesterday was no exception.

Tonight, I finally told my wife how bad it really is and that I have been crying lately. I try not to burden her with my pain issue's, but when I start becoming unbearable to live with, then I figured it was time to let her in on how it has been for me lately. She is a wonderful women and understands my anger and mood.

I am mentally exhausted. physically exhausted, becoming very depressed and when someone decides that having severe migranes all day is better then other pains, then the issue's is becoming more and more intolerable. It's 2:30 am know and I am unable to sleep because of the pain.

RSD Pain: 4 out of 10
Ankle Pain: 7.5 out of 10
Lower Back Pain 8 out 10
Migrane............ SUCKS

Unless my doctor will prescribe something more potent then ocyocodone (gives me the migranes) or Darvacet (doesnt work) then I will be in my own hell for years to come.

This is really starting to effect my marriage as for the past year I have only slept in our bed in as many times as there are fingers on my hands. I toss and turn because of the pain and lay there for hrs and hrs.

I really think that the SCS is my last resort.

I will have to be blunt with my doctor when I see him about prescribing me some pain meds that will help me until I can possibly try the SCS.

It is a battle with WC to get them to do anything. They have yet to set my pain management doctor appointment and they approved that doctor over 4 weeks ago. They will continue to stall and only cause more issue's to my health. I will become more depressed, cry more and be in constant pain.

But I promise all of you, I will fight WC every step of the way. Too many give in to them. I wont be one of them. They sit behind a desk and dictate what medical treatment they think is best for you when your doctor advises them you need this as soon as possible. And even when they do approve something, they stall more and more so they don't have to pay for it in hopes you will just give up.

Not me.


They are the Lion. But I am the thorn that will remain stuck in the Lions Paw. The mouse won't be able to remove this thorn.