and love you too ginnie

i am way overprotective
not only with my children
but all children
there is no stopping
me
i have shoved so much
away as a little girl
scared
no one took me under
any wing
it is like you said
exposure of so much
negative entertainment
and news you are right on
more playgrounds
thanks for caring

Hi Eva, It is good that you are protective. My house when my children were growing up was a neighborhood get together place. I had kids in and out all the time. Even my mom tried to help me out to feed alot of extra mouths. I miss those days very much. It was very good! have a good night Eva, I wish as a little girl you had someone to take you under their wings. Now we are under the protection of angel wings. We have that now, and that is what is important. We have the friends here, who help us with prayer every day. Have a good night, and sleep with no pain. ginnie

For as beneath eagle's wings
He who IS, and HAS BEEN, and ALWAYS WILL BE
has assured us we are His beloved
for whom He sacrificed His only child.

You are Precious, You are always covered, You are the beloved.

AND, you know you are always welcome in our home
where there is peace, there is comfort, there is the joy of God's blessing.

Come, now is the time to worship,
Mark56
For despite pain, I am blessed
Because of pain, my blessed wife brought me a tiny refrigerator freezer
for my office
and comfy house slippers
so I may remove shoes and socks at work
put my feet on ice packs from the freezer
and have slippers to go through the office or to the restroom
oh, the terrible burning pain I suspect might be RSD,
Fearful? yes, and God is with me
Hurting? yes, and God is with me
Determined to succeed? yes, and God is with me
Serving God and giving Him all glory? yes, and God is with me
For He is great and greatly to be praised.

How could I possibly live without the blessings of the Great I AM?

dear friends

blessings for the day

the power of God
and my may i humble
crumble in my hour of
worry time getting closer
and then i was blessed
without no doubt in my
being as i speak of
mankind God comes
through for me thank you
thank you thank you
worried about my medical
coverage my job granted
me an additional 6 month
approved leave from my job
hoping to return to life
bless your loving angel
leave it to women and a
great one at that
blessed are you both
a long happy life i pray
as the circle of life is
about to happen
you know the feel i'm talking
about Mark i am blessed the
love and respect from my
employer my mayor my boss
my friend Gods child 6 more
months of medical insurance
oh thank you God
lesson taken human
awareness is a better
way of expressing
my children too gennie
always still to date
my home was where
the children always
were especially having
the back yard was known
to have hamburgers and hot dogs
it is my daughter cory who i feel
for although i did allow her
a day off from school her
sister Sara took her to NYC
"one direction" first introduced
on the "today show" yes she
was grateful
oh Jesus
don't let me ever forget
i am at your house when
i call upon you for
everything that makes this
home is by your blessing
blessed am i a family my
children who make my home
dear Mary thank you for
your strong faith your
son a mother who protects
heart breaking tears only
a parent loosing their child
bless those around the world
who have been through that
kind of loss
a life long family friend of
my parents a Hungarian family
coming into America
point of it all this woman
buried 2 of her children
her only daughter to breast
cancer
her son to alcoholism
found dead two week after
the fact
she was coming to visit
and tidy up do his laundry
and a neighbor caught her
sat her down and broke the
news about her son
can't protect in these cases
how can it not hurt
and her third child suffered
a stroke quite some time ago
i couldn't imagine surviving
a loss of children
God save her
blessed i am by far when
remembering Helen
i am so happy about the
extension and can go to
care for the things put
on hold still have a way
to go however my shoulders
can relax a bit
so today thank you God
thank you Jesus
thank you Family and Friends
blessing in your day
pain is a terrible feeling
and how quickly taken
life from us as we know it
and then having to accept it
a life forever changed
Amen

Blessings on you too this day. I do know the pain of loosing an adult child but to something other than death. It is terrible to live with and I do pray for her everyday. Emotional pain is far worse than physical pain. I have a good friend who is a psychologist, who helps me to cope. We have been friends for 30 years. I thank God daily for this individual who is there for me, through all of lifes trials. Friends are a blessing in every meaning of the word. I also thank God for two other friends, who have been the best possible people who you could ask for. This is what makes it possible to go on in life in a good way. God brings people into your life when you need them the most. Thats what I think. I also think God directed me to NT to meet the people here. It sure has been another blessing in my life. I do count my blessings, and I thank God daily for the goodness of others. I am glad to know you Eva, and see your strength as you go forward through pain. People need each other. We learn from each other, and we get stronger with the souls that come into our lives. Have a good day, with less pain today.
I am doing chores, but with a smile. I actually like housework! ginnie

To be able to go to my Mom and Dad this weekend as my Dad's Alzheimers nears critical stages..... he calls my mother, his wife, Mommy, not knowing her anymore..... I cry.

To be able to work to earn money so we may purchase a home for my family.

To have friends HERE in this safe place who NAG me about taking care of myself because I am feeling the harbingers of RSD with great pain for the last week. The stim works great, but touches not at all the RSD pain. Ger says FEET UP, Stockings, I still have post surgical compression hose, I do not care what they look like if they work. I drink plenty of water, my favorite beverage, and I see my doctor next Thursday to pursue this development since it is full time now, even as I type this.

To have the simple grace of prayers from well meaning friends in this saft place where all about me is known by thousands and you pray.

God is surely great and a help in time of need.
He blesses me beyond measure.
He loves me a sheep who stays near to the fold,
He restores my soul and leads me in paths which may move mountain ranges,
Do you suppose the Deceiver is VERY CONCERNED and wants me to despair so mountain ranges cannot move? I am far stronger than the last time the Deceiver attacked me. God IS my strength, who can be against me?
I have been shown a fantastic future where it is possible to deliver an invention to raise a fortune greater than Solomon's so we who are here may reach out and purchase Boston Scientific, making it our own to guide, AND so we may fund a foundation to help people here and elsewhere in critical need so they need not worry about cost..... or expense..... or care, because the foundation will make their care FREE.....
AND under our leadership Boston Scientific will allow patients to program their own computers BECAUSE GOD WILL MAKE ALL GOOD THINGS POSSIBLE IF WE REMAIN TRUE TO OUR FAITH AND FOLLOW HIS RIGHTFUL LEADERSHIP!!!

I may sound kooky, but perhaps, just perhsps THIS IS THE MISSION all of that life long experience was my preparation by God for this few years of time in which HIS FAITHFUL will be delivered even, yes, from horror of pain.
Please pray as thousands together on this point. God is faithful to we who submit to Him.

Praying,
Mark56

Daughter Emily and I travelled to visit my Mom and Dad this weekend. Alzheimers has exponentially deepened for Dad. He does not know Mom. I arrived and he asked me "have I known you before?" and a few moments later when Emily entered the room, Dad says "oh, I see you brought your wife, how long have you been married?" This is the husk of the man who was strong and provided for family through the highway construction company he owned [the first trade I learned]. He was the leader of the family in which I matured where faith was important, acknowledging God in all things the passion I took on [am I beginning to write my father's eulogy here?"

Now to the need to ask for prayers for a Mothers of Pre-Schoolers in our community, name of Aimee, husband Joe, children 2 and 4 Aidan and Brianna. You see Aimee has been battling breast cancer for years [Eva, you can surely identify with this]. She has been in the hospital and was told there is no more time, less than a week. She returns home going off of morphine so she may be with her husband and beloved children to bid them so long for now as she goes to find a place for them with her in Heaven. Please pray for this YOUNG family, and for those who will be left behind that they be protected and shielded by God's eagle's wings. Preserved and supported in love until again their family is together.

Emily and I had safety driving the hundreds of miles to see my parents, her grandparents. Oh, how my feet burned, and I drove half-way in my little sports car. I sure have fun in that little Eagle Talon. A collectible sports car, not made since 1998..... zoom.

Thank you God, Thank you Holy Spirit, Thank you Jesus, Thank you blessed Mary for bringing Jesus into our world,
Amen
Mark56

I am sorry Aimee has this battle with cancer. This disease takes too many young lives. It is ever so sad to hear. I will pray for her too Mark. I have lost friends from this horrible disease too. She too, had to leave her family, and move into heaven. May we all be re united in a better place. ginnie

We know not God's full picture for He does not let us see. We just have to be guided by faith. Oh, Mark.....I pray this was not only temporary. Was this so you could fulfil some of the duties to your parents, family, etc.??

The ever so painful drive only adds to your ongoing pain. Pushing too much, might hasten the conditions that seem to be attacking. Hold on to your Faith; you did not let the evil one get you before..... YOU WILL NOT allow that to happen. GOD will give you all you need; maybe not all you want; but all that is needed to be accomplished.

Dear God; Hear our prayers for this man ever so close to You and Mother Mary.

dear friends

my blessings for the day

humble humble oh humble i am
and even more aware of the
magnitude we get right in the face
the Devil always working
manipulating at it's best
i am so distraught how
much loved ones of the
ailing go through to have
no way of sparing children
the loss of a momma i grieve
for AIMEE JOE AIDAN BRIANNA
I AM NOT GOING TO SAY ANYMORE
about that may it be enriched by
the ones that mean most at this time
fly
Amen
blessed are you able to
touch the loved ones
locked away its all alive
brain the soul
it has by default of no other
genetics at the fear of not
being able to recall on demand
i am sorry that your mother is
experiences such devastation
before her own eyes
i hope if your dad has
a moment of clarity it is with
her
i hope as they may gaze
into each others eyes
something only what
they share in silence
i have prayed will continue
it until i can
AMEN
thank you GOD
thank you JESUS
thank you FAMILY