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08-14-2012, 12:22 PM | #51 | |||
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as gerry reminds me the deceiver never to far away thank you for sharing may your pain be replaced by healing hands from above my Cleos touch remind you you have someone who loves you may the pooch lick you till you laugh although it even hurts to laugh Samson must be a strong young little thing you just want to cuddle with and play when Eva comes into bed with me she goes nuts showing off what she can do like standing on her head with her legs planted firmly not to loose her balance bent over looking for me in approval of her accomplishment oh how i love it when she is all tired out and just lays next to me can't pick her up way too heavy the more for me to tickle Gerry thank you for your reminder as the deceiver is always on the lookout in God, Jesus, Holy Spirit and Mother Mary i trust keep us safe may your day be easy on you mark i am in bed 95% of the time when home a life not for me but it is what it is next weekend my sister and daughter Christine will do the jersey shore as Corissa an i watch Eva the sun is changing as the earth tilts before you know it Thanksgiving and the holidays another year i need to still do so much to the apartment maybe when Corissa starts school i'll then try what i can being a perfectionist doesn't help in my condition promise to take it slow and with my new team of doctors to guide and support me and find out what went wrong i still wake up every morning in tears awaiting for my meds to kick in and swear up and down what did he do to me the last time i seen my neurosurgeon gave me a script 10-18-11 never to hear from him ever as my hiccup cancer was arrested and in addition not even final closure as if all okidoki no need to see you ever again painful resentments took many of my passions away from me and most important he lied to me over and over enough already have a blessed beautiful as pain free as possible happiness where ever you can get it and let it wash over you so many in pain Lord hear our prayers
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08-15-2012, 08:31 PM | #52 | |||
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dear friends
a place i can count on as i can't explain it though i might make sense to another crying heart cannot put my finger on it as the tornado continues to wreak havoc all around my family all i can do is pray pray pray oh LORD hear our prayers i feel i am loosing it as strong as i may be my prayers with my God the wishes and dreams i have all have nothing to do with me i am responsible and i LOVE my GOD PHYSICALLY i am rotting day by day after several attempts with surgery i have firmly decided NO MORE SURGERY answers to what went wrong pending new doctors and their test again till then my life seems so sad for i am sad most of my waking life my baby girl and i are it right now loves of mine BABY EVA SIR OLIVER who give me joy as much as i miss my job and the everyday routines in my life has all been taken slowly as my body does what it is doing i have no control of it and every thing to follow slowly as i rot more difficulties follow my hips have been a new addition to the "multitude" of problems my wrists fingers hands from 100% down to maybe 20% on good days tingles of pain as now in the end thy will be done give us this day our daily bread LORD i thank and praise GOD your father MARY your mother is my daily bread as all is real and i BELIEVE that GOD is in control and i must obey blessed i am as i am a mommy and grandmother my children my life someone who cares
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08-15-2012, 10:56 PM | #53 | ||
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Eva.....
I pray, pray for you by name in my evening prayers. If the pain won't at least subside, I pray for you to feel the joy for the gifts you have been given; JOY enough to overcome this terrible pain and mentally bring you to a place where you know this is only a journey. A journey that will bring the love and heavenly peace of knowing there is so much more that awaits us. Gerry) |
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08-16-2012, 11:24 AM | #54 | |||
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dear friends
thank you Lord another day my pain level reached a point of insane my balloons are not symmetrical the right one still aches and is red take my temperature normal my throat still painful having the tube down my throat oh how i loath the or room the taste of the of the meds in the back of my throat the constant sweats form the tamoxifen irate as heck when its happening no control over my body HURTS EMOTIONALLY AND DRAINING AS THEIR ARE WOMEN WHO EXPERIENCE THE SAME HATS OFF FOR THE WOMEN IN THIS CATEGORY i have a strong will that seems to be fading blessed in many ways to have my eyesight to have a voice to be able to move some when heavy duty meds kick in is still a privilege and all in the name of GOD i am thankful it is not my wish that after all that has happened i get angry yesterday was tough today a challenge all the same different day let me be grateful not angry i never imagined my life in this state i have sacrificed many and was not selfish i dedicated my life for my family and yet all are suffering one way or another it always ends talking of my children because i have no significant other and that by choice don't know if i would do it the same i at least have comfort in my rearing my children alone another sad day curled up in a ball so until the brakes get done we are home bound wishing all a happy joyful day someone who cares
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08-16-2012, 12:03 PM | #55 | |||
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Today our dear Mark is in the OR, and yet he (once again!) lightens our spirits with his wit and humor.
I got a PM yesterday, in which I cannot contain to myself and hopefully dear Eva, it will lift your sadness - as this is the nature of our nurturing brother in the spirit....even in the midst of his own painful turbulance. He had quite the silly episode while getting his pre-op testing done and gave me permission to share... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Here I am on the table for the EKG this afternoon for the physical. It is a small room, the table was all of four feet long if that, and they asked me to lay down for the EKG. Cleo was in there. The examining doc was in there. The nurse in charge of the intake was in there. The EKG tech was in there, and things were going haywire! The doc was asking me whether I had endured any cardiac problems. No. The tech was just beside herself because the rhythms were all bonkers..... I thought she was going to cry. Doc asked, can't she get even a decent baseline on me? NO! I thought they were going to cart me off for cardiac surgery in an emergency....... then........ they started talking about MRI, and I said "Wait a minute! I told you I have SCS implant and cannot have an MRI!" Then I asked "um, by the way, would it help you if I turned it off, because it is running right now?" They almost ripped the remote out of my hand once I withdrew it from my jeans pocket, and before I could get it turned off. Problem solved. I did not have heart surgery on a healthy heart today. Now, if this is not a good blessings post for you to drop AFTER you stop laughing....... I will grant you I can do no better. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Thank you for that Mark . Capturing the 'visual' on this scene has completely made my day. Anxiously we await an update . And until then, we continue to hold you dear to our hearts... Rae |
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08-16-2012, 12:41 PM | #56 | |||
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thank you so much rrae made my day thank you prayers indeed go out to mark and family and all of my extended family that includes YOU LOTS OF LOVE ALL AROUND LORD HEAR OUR PRAYERS
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08-16-2012, 01:10 PM | #57 | ||
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Well thats the best yet!!! and Mark put it so well as you say you could just 'visualise' it all fantastic! Do hope all goes well for him Jackie |
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08-17-2012, 07:14 PM | #58 | |||
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dear friends
blessed to have another day as tough as it has been i am thinking of of our brother mark hoping you experience as least pain as possible recovery was extremely tough for myself something i pray no one has to endure but of course not reality is pain hope in your sleep sate there be quick healing hope all are well can't wait to see a picture of Samson someone who cares
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08-17-2012, 08:42 PM | #59 | |||
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dear GOD
two weeks now not able to achieve nada my body feels as it were being crushed my hips are acting up so badly i am tired of the tears it kills my head my heart is in pain a reach to to you in hope you hear our prayers God you know my thoughts they are not what i wish to even bring in my brain it is not healthy it is not what i want the PAIN SO REAL THROB THROB THROB A BODY THAT DOESN'T LISTEN TO ME i am so sad i am so depressed i am not alone but i am lonely i am limited and it kills me i have so much to offer time is so short living half my life that mostly was in fear left at seventeen and have been on my own since and i am where i am today by the GRACE OF GOD as only you know how tired i am everything and anything that i have been through was on my own this family is so tiny its family name may not even survive i am sick of my tears that is all i do not healthy not something Corrisa should see GOD hear my prayers take this ache away my heart broken in so many pieces many lost and gone save me from myself the joy is less and less as the pain is more and more blessed i am in many ways heartache comes with it help me GOD I TRUST YOU AMEN! BLESSINGS TO ALL
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08-17-2012, 09:09 PM | #60 | |||
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Hugs all 'round, Jan
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