Yup Colleen
 

You see, the Lord has this way cool thing about working things out to the good for those who seek out His guidance, comfort, and participation. When Cleo and I were ridin high as I was at the peak of my career previously we had supposedly arrived..... we were multi-millionaires in cash. That was OK, but I learned so very clearly through the wreck and all my hope was built on cash in hand and bank rather than Christ and faith.

Sure, we did worship at the time, and did some way cool things with the cash according to the Lord's leadership. BUT, it was that supposed self reliance and the resulting FALL from the top which brought ME and my need for God's grace squarely into focus.

Imagine that.... seven and a half years later, and we are just barely beginning to come back from the brink after letting go of every last bit of the treasure so we could be totally reliant on God. Totally. This is how I know it will work out to the good.... it is because in coming through the eye of the needle with the Lord I finally had my eyes opened to the realization there is much MUCH more to this life than Mark's silly talent pool and skills.

We are so much richer in our relationships, in our reliance on faith, in the realization fundamentals of life are met and in this we are Blessed. Besides, you know? When I was allowed this wonderful blessing of SCS, then was allowed to program myself, then realized it worked so very well, career became once again within grasp, and now so many more doors are opening!!

Before, I was selfish with my personal time. Now, there is time to provide help and much needed help it is for others who need help, whether it is free legal help, counselling to get through pain problems, or help finding that next career opportunity for the unemployed. So many many riches in interpersonal relationships have become part of our lives since we "lost everything." How cool is that???

So, my friend, you have life ahead, and time to be healed through this which may bring wonderful pain management to you,
I so very much hope and pray this will be the case for you,
Yes, I feel it,
Prayin,
Mark56 Yup:):hug::grouphug:

Comfort...
 

I think our spiritual walk is a process, a journey where we never quite arrive. That is a good thing for me as I never want to go back to feeling totally self reliant. I find it to be a relief not to look to myself to come up with all the answers as many of them would fall way short of the mark.

Being anxious is not an idicator of lack of faith. Having peace in the midst of a storm does not mean one is not aware of the storm and it's potential. It is the knowledge and comfort that all will be well, ultimately. Cut yourself a bit of slack. After all, we are but human. Be well.:hug::hug:

clear path
 

Morning Colleen
Sending along prayers for a Clear Lighted Path...it is so cool to watch doors open.

I have found a wonderfully tenasious (spelling?) medical insurance woman who says there is a pre existing medical insurance policy few people know about. I will keep you updated. First you have to be without insurance for 6 months and then you have to apply for a regular policy....be denied... then you can appy for this pre existing insurance. Also she said once the SS disability and Medicare kick in...she has policy's that will cover everything...ssoooo...we shall see...I have become quite the sceptic...LOL---I almost typed septic which really says more than I care to reveal...LOL
I love your attitude...u go girl!!
Johanna

Beautifully SAID
 

Wonderful post Spine! :You-Rock: :Thanx: :winner_first_h4h: :Good-Post:

Blessings be,
Mark56:hug::grouphug:

Great news!
 

Hey everyone-

I've put this a couple of different places already, incl. it's own thread, but it's been discussed in a couple of different threads, so I figure I'll just "announce" it a few times so that all of you who've supported me through my worrying will see it...

Mark- you are right again my friend! You said it would all work out, and it is indeed, all working out. I just found out that my perm SCS implant will be at the Surgery Center, not at the hospital. So the worry about getting in before ins runs out and all of that is out the window! I may even be buzzing with my perm implant by the end of the year!

So I just want to say a huge THANK YOU to everyone who has been so supportive and has prayed for me. Now I can just be excited for my upcoming trial SCS (on the 27th), and not be fretting constantly! but don't get me wrong, keep the prayers coming, if you would please, I need all I can get... I tend to be the person that if things can go wrong for, they do...lol (just ask my family doc... she even said "this WOULD happen to you and sorta shook her head, while being very sympathetic, though, when I told her about my RSD, lol...)

Anyways, thank you all!!!

~Colleen :grouphug:

What type of dog is Brinkley, Colleen? Our pets are absolutely precious to us. My boxer 'Sadie' means the world to me, as she really helped me through some of my darkest hours....... i know that may sound a little kooky, but some of the greatest comfort can come just by sitting silently with a loved one.
My family is terrific btw, it's just that everyone has things going on, but our DOG...well. Always there. :)
Check her out on my profile page!

Rae
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Rae-

Brinkley is a westie. And I feel the same way about him as you explain w/your dogs... He pulled me from the deepest depression when my RSD was getting the best of me! It's going to break my heart to have him gone, but for one, I just can't foresee myself taking care of him properly at the beginning of my recuperation from surgery, and for two, I will be staying with my dad/step-mom for a time after both surgeries (I'm sure a bit longer after the perm. implant), and I can't take him with me there. (my stepmom doesn't allow dogs in the house).

So as much as it's going to hurt, I have to let him take a "vacation to Meema's" (Meema being the name I've given my mom for him...she didn't like me calling her "grandma" so I picked "Meema" instead, lol) at least until I'm able to move enough to where I can take care of him.

I'm going to need lots of prayers during this time, as I'm going to be so lonely without him! But I have to look at what's best for him, and making sure that this surgery counts, and if I don't look after myself, I'll end up pulling a lead or something like that, and it'll all be for nothing...

p.s.
 

p.s. Rae-

Sadie is absolutely adorable! What a sweetheart! :)

Yes, I can relate to your mom! :D 'Grandma' is not for me, so I'm "Nana" to the dog and the grandboy!

Sure you will miss Brinkley, but you are doing the right thing and he'll be back in your loving embrace before you know it!

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