Father
Brother
Mother Mary

Sweet Mother
thank you for your son
whoever people
believe or not
Warren Batty sis
Sherle Mclane
believes in her heart
and believes in beings
ions so advanced
are our makers
i will go this far
in her assessment
Jesus did walk this earth
was crucified
ascended into heaven
to sit at the right hand
of our father
maybe this be her belief
she has a belief
of a Higher Power
our ancestors
lol

the idea of your motherly Love
must have shown off your face
every suckle at your breast
nurturing him showing her
angelic face of unconditional
LOVE
the kind of love
we all as children should
have felt
Joseph fathering
showing him how to have fun
as a little boy
Sweet Mother Mary
IN AWE
the woman their input
as wife mother
to OUR blessed brother
to be on your knees using
rocks as wash board
i have had many times
would have been a time
i would have liked to be
around for
i thank you for that

Sleep
i slept all night through
woke at the time Corissa
kissed me
see you later mom
recognized immediately
that my knee left was
not in pain
cortisone shot
took it like the good
patient
meylogram and the discogram
two test i will never forget the pain
as my head needed to be beheaded
nothing compared to natural childbirth
having four children
take it from some one who knows
i am a good patient

Sleep how refreshing
don't want to forget my
thanks
blessing i had help
for the first time i recognize
i do not have the strength
as i did having my last child
induced she was comfy in mommy
went 42 weeks with Corissa after
15 years how my body iis failing me
i had abundance of breast milk for
all my babies
Corissa would drink so quickly
milk would come from her nose
i had to sit up for about 3 minuets
for many 30 months is not looked upon
as a good thing
i was so happy to talk to the mammo tech
having her 1st child
i hope i left her thinking
i asked before just rambling on
i do have manners
at times i rambling on here

for the most part it was a difficult
job getting help was at an 8 most time
fasting for blood work
i was hurting
i would not have been able to
do what i thought i could
here i will close
and say

thank you for birthing OUR brother
who sit at the right hand of our
Father
Amen!
blessed i am
bless my children with
common sense
angels protect them
AMEN!

Money the root of all evil
My eldest TRULEY surprised me
it was to have been a written agreement
Now I was told this evening I can
take them to court
A I let Sara buy her computer with a 1,3500
balance and the 600.00 for her storage
And now I can take them to court
It's my own fault
policy expired
Too late
All for what
And they were not raised
with what I have taught them
silly thing is it will hurt
Out of sight out of mind

Eva,

So sorry you are having to deal with all of this. Sometimes, I think "plastic" is too often the root of all evil.

Love & Prayers,

Gerry

Yup. I am.

Being taken advantage by anyone, let alone your own children is incredibly hard. I am concerned for you and the endurance through this hard time, Eva. May you have strength, the ability to pay it away AGAIN, and then Double Strength to remember in a "tough love way" that word NO should requests come again to GIVE money You Do Not Have.

There is a limit, you know?
And that limit is not the limit on your charge card.
It is the limit by which you may be taken advantage.
Be strong.
Love and hugs,

because of her diabetes
her weight
turns out the heart med that were
given to her for the diabetes
and not have the medicine to take
her heart has gotten dependent on
it
she is feeling numbness
thumb
pointer
and middle
were the sign of heart
conclusion
she is a candidate
to suffer a stroke
if she does not take
care of herself
and how sorry she is
she really understands
as in the last 3 days
she knew something was not right
only if you really pay attention
i am off of the med one of my doctors
had me on Lexapro took me to
very dark places i do need
to get to a cardiologist
and the induced stress test
was the last cardiologist
as per clearance
i left the cardiologist
due to staff
he was the one to put me on
blood pressure meds and anxiety
med xanx
then surgery
hell i sure am an induced addict
as my body troubles are happening
quickly
who do i trust
myself
i do need my pressure meds
especially now
but to be so in tune with my body
i taught my children well
may they not incur any more physically ill
my eldest epileptic
my boy bi-polar, just diagnosis atrial fibrillation
my third child diabetic and now a candidate for a stroke
my last child kidney surgery age 1 year old
known since 3 1/2 months
and lastly mom
who is still rock of this family
spare Eva my granddaughter
let there be healthy choices
and have healthy life
meds can be helpful in one area and harming
some other organ
operative word here can
but always heed to the warnings
a lesson indeed

my dear concerned friend
to date my fico score is surprisingly great
3 reports also good to excellent
not that plastic is the way to go
i mange to meet my obligation
my policy i take loans on is the
hardship as all given by the GUILTY
competently my fault
i will own up to that
i will be responsible for my own emotional
status
having many who care and understand
it is something i must not let happen
anymore
to have projects in my home
that will take much of my time and TLC
having a nice zen feel
all who come feel good
it is the best i can do for myself
i enjoy decorating
i know how to shop and save
but to say NO
i also understand NO has to mean NO
i must follow through
you input taken as Gerry is also
having some similar situations
and all others of keeping me lifted
when needed most

my daughter is misbehaving
not taking care of herself
does not realize how she
could not be here possibly
if she keeps eating anything
she wants
i have to back off
i have to back down
i have to take care of me
as i am the rock
that all keep coming to
build me up sweet Jesus
make me strong as they check
up on Eva
and court on Monday
to much
it's just to much

it isn't the innocent that's nuts
to many corrupted persons
evil doers
money money
root of all evil
idiots allowed to become
doctors

now we will see how insurance companies
will behave with all the changes
sadly i do NOT trust anyone
to many screw up in my case
and after care the most important
part after any surgery
is the most important part of getting better
tending to our helpless needs
having to go to the bathroom
checking if everything is kosher
like my hematoma
something that would have been
a visual to my after care nurses
no one bothered to look at the back of my neck
but i would hear as they checked the drain as it
was empty nada nothing

only when doc comes strolling in and
sees clearly the lump of spinal fluid
that collected on the site of incision
drained me several times
released me only for it to swell
i was balling crying of excruciating
PAIN MONSTER PAIN
called told him i took pictures
asked why did i do that
had me come to the hospital er
he drained and drain and drained
and drained it was incredibly unbelievably
stupid of him to think i am a idiot

and here i am maimed
from a doctor who took an oath
and the aftercare nurses the same
and i am here maimed

may his hands not work to do this to anyone
ANYMORE
ANYMORE

just read what i wrote

in the end it should have read

may the hands not work the wrong way
as in my case my drain was put in by him
it failed to do the job

apologies
that just did come out
as i know none was intentional

a tough rough night with my neck back
and my right knee kept waking up
this bloody knee
things are working there way down and
bottom of feet on upward
i a frighten at the progression
my finger tips to the elbow
to look at my hands and feet
it is so evident to the eye
no blood flow
circulation is not right
they are a yellowish color
under the nails all white
as it should be pink
still have a month to see new spine doc
ready for him
till then
it is one moment at a time

i also noticed since off one of my meds
that took me took me to very dark places
and feeling lonely has been lifted

people
please pay close attention to the meds
you are given to take

thank you for letting me share

this really sucks
the throb in my knee
has a heartbeat of its
own
doc says
come in and we will
do the right knee
car is gone
break line needs replacing
something i cannot afford
now loosing the little
independence i had
this really sucks
period
less pain