into this world
we are up against
an awful beastly bullies
who take a title and misuse it
in the name of having it her way
and because i was relentless
about the truth of the matter
this not many will venture
there are persons of some agency
most state jobs have outrageous
thievery just plain old brutality
this is the state of N.J.
division of motor vehicle
found to be guilty of bribes
for identity
in the county fraudulent birth certificates
were given as bribery grows this as far back as 1960'S
well i'm not one to be reckoning with
if you knowingly were deceitful
these (many choice words) were going to use
deem mentally incapable of watching her
just not the case
my kindness was taken for stupid
oh was she cunning
oh how she wanted to know went down
all i said was
i was lied to
how it is clear that this was premeditated
and Carla still came to the house never telling me they were going to take the baby from me
she will not be allowed to manipulate the truth
i now will have my Dr. to write a letter with the facts
and

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someone who cares

dear friends
those concerned
majority of this all
that involves
not the issue at hand
the place to stay till
mommy completes her
what is called here
"the black out period 28 days"
there after baby with mommy
i have issues alright
the mass destruction of family
to disrupt a family
that is trying to help each other
for the sake of Eva
i head of this family
shall remain in her stance
all in the name of
truth and justice
i will keep the Faith and
Truth alive!

may all those involved even in the
slightest way
may you be punished for
being the cause of a happy
family with this child 1st in mind
try and tare us apart

phone

my psychotherapist
well just as i suspected
my Dr. did not utter anything
to DYFS THAT I WAS INCOMPETENT
MENTALLY

THERE YOU GO

READY TO BE VICTIMIZED YET AGAIN
WHO IS RESPONSIBLE FOR THIS
SO GOD HELP ME IT DOESN'T STOP
I JUST NEED TO CC MANY ON THE TOTEM POLE
IT STARTED SOMEWHERE
I SMELL ROTTEN FISHES
OPERATIVE WORD
ROTTEN

enough Eva
this is a place where someone goes for help

is it because she is beautiful in all
a loving demeanor
never a problem with her
she is laying in front of me watch
me type
she is mesmerized by the smiley faces


am i the only one that sees it
i will have my day in court

all i ask for are prayers

someone who cares

i hope for a trial
in my case with my neurosurgeon
i pray i learn quickly
this is all new to me
but i pray i can have a trial
so the persons will be able to hear
and see the injustice
allow me the opportunity to make a difference
including all them persons
that are addicts because it be
a lucrative business
and i speak of the reps coming in
while patients are waiting to be seen
but because they bought lunch for the office
it is all a ploy in the name of $$$$$

FROM BEGINNING TO END
PERIOD!

I GOD I TRUST
AMEN!

CRAP AS i am too exhausted at the capabilities of the energy this agency
puts into screwing up a family i believe because "I""WHO IS HER PROTECTOR"
I AM HER MIMMA
I AM IN LOVE WITH HER
WHY DO YOU NOT HAVE
HER BEST INTEREST
BEFORE ANYTHING ELSE
what were you to gain
Carla,
The caseworker, someone who is to help
not harm as SHE IS DOING
this being was ready to go
THAT EXTRA MILE I MUST
FOR MY GRANDDAUGHTER
THAT BEING SAID
WE ARE GOING TO DO ALL WE MUST
I WANT THE TRUTH

SOMEONE WHO I GUESS WILL BE PUNISHED
help me Jesus
God you are the boss
i want to feel the strength
empowered to do good

God, Jesus
Mother Mary
be with me always


someone lied and truth will come out
this i will be certain

i believe
Amen!

May all be WELL
and may ALL who transgress
pay the price.......for their agenda mongering.
Amen?

Absolutely
I will embrace
In Jesus name
my Faith
that all be punished
be demoted
retrain so
No making up the rules
as you move along
I am sure of protocol
I asked
Why no guide as how to
or and guide
answer
it is my lawyers responsibility

So I say
I had no indication I would have needed one
as I had no clue I was the target hence the bomb
Lynette is my public defense lawyer took a while to return
my messages
Anther M. said he was handing it over to her and also said
he trained her

So holding on trying to absorb

Someone who cares

How can I say anything more than am prayin this well be resolved well for the family.

i don't know
someone tell me please
please tell me i'm not
over reacting
i open myself up
no this is me
the person who has learned
i have learned
i wouldn't say who
but for the person
says
to me
"you do not want to tell them everything"
this be someone who is involved
i will certainly not have been
able to have cared for her
as i wouldn't have been able to
care for her including holding her
i ask you this child has been
the happiest demeanor
all that encounter this child are
pleasantly surprised at how she
entertains herself
with her legos
i have been tugged this
way and that way
with limitations
for i am not of any kind of money
i have been in a predominantly no
luxury of affording a lawyer was
never in my cards
oh friends
make no mistake i had
several chances to marry into
that
but because i am true to myself
morally
not to mention
i have never had the
opportunity to Love
i had a job to do
and i promised myself
i would never marry for
if there is no love
i need to feel a spark
in my tummy
all the opportunity with all the men
i served them breakfast and dinner too
then there was the time i was doing three
duties in a day as my children were older
around 14ish and down
waitressed full time cleaned and baby
sat rich wanna be in the Bergen County section
and night school acquired two medical certificates
yeah it seems as if i
were witchin
but i'm not
if my children ever tried "i can't do it"
i have a speech for them
well just got word caseworker
contacted my daughter
and said
she this time was unable to
provide a ride for us
no biggy it will cost a fortune
to park i have extra eyes in the
car we will be fine it is about a 20 min.
on the side streets
just called psychotherapist
left a message for him to fax
letter for my public defender
oh jeez i hope i have all my ducks in a row
just in case they should deny me temporary
i called my maternal parent if she would
take care of her

you know my ability to be a chef in my own home
has been ripped from me in an instant my 2nd
operation sealed that permanently


i am in a fog

no paperwork on the accusation to date
so this public defender was short and rushed me
off the phone

i have represented myself on many occasions
at one time the city trying to get me fired
my rebuttal letter was so well put together
this with the help of my daughter
went as is to my boss "the Mayor"who still holds seat

we'll be in the path of JESUS CHRIST as i will be
protected
in Jesus name
i eva BELIEVE

someone who cares
AMEN!
AMEN!
AMEN! AMEN! AMEN!

Gentle HUGZ to you my friend

i so thank you as my hugs must be
GENTLE
and how do you say that too your
grandbaby when she runs into my arms
when she says come on mimma
OR WHEN I GIVE HER A BATH
OR CHANGE HER ALL DONE AS I SIT
ON THE FLOOR
she'll get up wrap her arms around my neck
squeeze me and say
"I LOVE YOU MIMMA"

THAT'S ALL I HAVE TO SAY!