Hi All my friends....
 

Well I have some issues. The EMG didn't show anything. So I have been referred back to my Neurologist who did my last spinal fusion. I have to have an MRI and rule out my neck. I can't, won't have any more surgery. I pray that this is not what this is. My neck does not hurt very much and has not since my surgery, so I can't believe this is what is wrong with my arm and hand. The other mentioned was RSD. I am not going to freak just yet. My son does not believe this is either of those things. The joint in my elbow feels stretched, pins and needles, down to my right hand. Ten's unit turned on too high kind of feelings. I will do PT as if this is an injury after the MRI. Not pleased to be running up the medicare bill either. I know all of you pray, we will for each other. I am happy despite these issues, which is a new experience all together. I am not going to let depression back into my life. If I have to learn to live with this new pain so be it. xxxginnie:grouphug:

as test get tougher
 

Father
Brother
Mother Mary

a beautiful journey to you Anne

Father
as situations test my tolerance
i fail on some level
it is difficult to go up against
corrupt inept workers tat cause
hardship to me directly
my pushing my way through evil
all around is a difficult task
and because of devious manipulation
on so many levels i was force to pay a
$110.00 dollar ticket
and because the parking authority
director is at this direct convenience
one of the two parking meter ticket persons
was on vacation
therefore the temporary persons in charge
of making sure all was ready for court
only to find out he too was on vacation
now dear Father
i am forced to pay this ticket because
"I" did not call 5 days earlier to reschedule the
date 22nd came with a message the day before his
working day so i was unable to speak with him as he
requested
i only called 21st to make sure all was ready
Father i did all i could do
why the outcome i feel failed by doing the right thing
where is the punishment where it belongs
why such inadequate morons that cost me
unnecessary pain anguish a system played
i had no choice but to pay the $110.00 ticket

Father how can such utter evil take over
i am but your child
living hanging on by a thread of faith
for i know there is suppose to be a lesson to be had
and the only thing is to humble myself
and accept it
help me with that
i'm having a real hard time

Father
i want to get well
as well as you will let me
please help
in Jesus name
Amen

it's another day
 

Father
Brother
Mother Mary

pain is lifted a bit
i am able to sleep through the night
my lack of mobility
sucks
as you know my mental state
and i just doing what i can
Brother hold me up
i need your help
my mind is weak
my spirit weak
my body weak
when will i feel
happiness
peace
love
will it be when i die

Father
i don't like what i feel
it is with me always now
lift this heavy heart
in Jesus name
Amen

so many reaching out for you Father
 

Father
Brother
Mother Mary

thank you for another day

dear Father
i have the ability to witness
the power of your being
the yearning for one to feel
You
dear Father
allow this human being
who is suffering in pain
and call out your name
i ask you allow him to experience
your touch where he can see
and listen that it is coming
from You
in Jesus name
i ask
my daughter who is trying
to put her life together
looking for you
let her feel your love
while i watch her baby
your divine intervention
for a reason
i'm on leave from my job
and have custody of my granddaughter
for God is in control of this biggie
it's in his hands
i am Gods child
doing my motherly duties
in Jesus name
Thank You Father
watch over my family
let them look for You
Amen

i need You more than ever
 

Father
Brother
Mother Mary

dear Father
i pray i need you today
the storm is rough
my crew all abandon
my heart stripped
fill it with the joys
only you know how to fill
last night cried so much
got sick as ever
up all night waiting
she left to get the laundry downstairs
at 11:00 yesterday morning
and hasn't come home yet
help me be strong Jesus
hold me up
i need you now more than ever
in Jesus name

I hope all is ok with you Eva. Let us know :)

reading my mind
 

I was thinking that myself.
HB

it's kicking my butt
 

Father
Brother
Mother Mary

thank you for another day

today i will have all my family with me
minus my boy
to the pool we go
mommy and her four babies
only they aren't babies anymore
but for Eva
my mind my soul troubled
with the constant fear of
what's going to happen next
there is no sense of ease
i miss my dog so badly
he would be loving this
sad body my dog
i miss him terribly
Father may Your Spirit be felt
as i have a day with my girls
Brother come into our day
pull us closer in every way
as i speak of the Father
to my dear family here on NT
may your days be filled with
happiness laughter joy to all
for my friends who understand me
for the ones who suffer in more
ways than one
may Jesus Christ our Savior
God the Father be forever
present in our lives
having Faith is the only way
i pray for anyone who feels alone
know you are never alone
it is a difficult road i travel
and i need help
Brother help me
help us
thank you Mother
thank you
i Jesus name
amen

we went nowhere
 

Father
Brother
Mother Mary

my child to my granddaughter
was high
in no condition to be with her
daughter
the wish was broken
my eldest driven home
and we just came back home
it was a very sad tearful day

i called her this morning
we shall try it again today

no sense in asking for your blessing
my wish was broken
i have no one
my family broken into thousands of pieces
my memories
mostly horror stories
makes me think my past lineage
must have done something
awfully terrible
and we all suffer
Father
let this not be so
i am a sane person
living an insane life
save my children
spare them
we are going to try this
again minus one of my girls
Father keep a close watch over
all of us
in the name of Jesus Christ
amen

Praying Blessings For You
 

Dear Eva-
So much need in those whom you love
and then there is the need you know as well
May you be blessed, this is my prayer
in all things
in family who to this day to things which are beyond comprehension
in your body that pain be pushed away
in your spirit that it be buoyed up by the Father who watches over us
and may you feel the comfort of being held in the familiar soft flannel shirt covered arms of His surrounding love
Amen,
M56:hug: