I tell her all the times
you send her well wishes
You would be proud to see how far she has come
I'm not talking about things she still needs to accomplish
Something her father does not agree with
So for things that I still have to contend with
Because he do not see the importance of a GED
To know algebra or language English you understand what I mean
If the situation were different and all the dramatic changes that happened while she was a young girl
Trying to find friends in a new school all alone
not feeling confident about herself
Now you have to see her
Walking with her shoulders back
Accepting her beautiful being
See isn't just beautiful
She is stunning
She know with all her being
I am not her enemy
And not to treat me like such
Just because I am the one you can always turn too
That became old
I had to make changes
I would take her out of school again
if she were to go that route freshman and sophomore year
Oh what a time that was
She also as we speak
Because she will be working soon
Is practicing self control with the obsession she has with her phone
Not anything else
If it were water proof it could be in the shower with her
My granddaughter watching what is going on when we talk
Gerry
Ill try to get a vidio of her telling time
She understands o'clock and thirty
meaning when the second hand on o'clock is the number time
And the second hand on six and it be number it was just on a litte while ago and that's where the thirty comes in
I am truly blessed to honestly be in a better frame of mind
and to be able to not get depressed
Sad yes but not to the point where I let it affect me at that point
Corissa when she cooks is getting to become a mini chef in the kitchen
The phone propped up somewhere
Hope you are doing well enough to have some time doing something for you
I mentioned I have a person
His name is John
Both time important to me was
calling on Christmas Eve and Easter Sunday
with well wishes
This captures my interest
And we will be meeting soon
This too has been a positive new something in my life
My life
For me
You know what I mean
Still he is willing to meet my two who live home with me
In other words shown some courtesy
Refreshing
A Vietnam veteran
Divorced
Just returned to his mothers house two block up from me
He has taken on as caretaker to her
She is an Alzheimer's recipient and when travels to work
some long period of times she is taken with him
Has a sister
I am intrigued
In a good way

To my past it will always be a part of me
It made me who I am today
I like who I have become
This is true

My wishes you are taking care of your happiness would be refreshing
With much
Much
Love
Us

Eva,

I'm Looking forward to seeing new pictures/video of your beautiful granddaughter.

Thank you for the update on Corissa. I'm am happy to learn she has gained confidence in herself which apparently comes thru with her looking "stunning'. It all works together.

Hopefully having this someone in your life will continue. That is always a plus.


Gerry

Father
Brother
Mother Mary

Blessed to receive what will come in my day

Dear Father
May I remain humble
May I not toot my horn
May I never be full of myself
May i serve my fellow human friends
with my Love of The Lord
May my experience strength and hope
Be empowering for those who need it
I know You are Alive in me
In Jesus I trust
Father you sent him to suffer ultimate pain
humiliation mistrust among us who did not beleive
To have been witness to the miricle of life following your
teachings
I born into the Roman Catholic religion is not what my message
It is your promises I am reminded of
And the unconditional LOVE you pour onto us
My givings are of myself
The truth about who I am
It was in my recovery did I accept
Christ as my Savior
As the poem "footprints"
Is forever the truth when speaking of my life
For without your teachings
Such as the
Lord's Prayer
I beleive there is a way to a better life
And it be
May I mind my business
Speak when spoken to
Give just because
Love why not
May this be constant and remain
Strong in my Faith
I will survive
Until You bring me home
I want to live
I want my children in my life
My door always open
I have become a better person
Just knowing
Only You know what is in my Heart
Bless us in this day with your Grace
In Jesus I trust
Amen

Father
Brother
Mother Mary

Thank you for the gifts I will receive today

Blessed I am Father
To be able to turn my fears over to
You

Blessed I am to know Jesus
As he walked this earth

A doctor I must see
My lung right hurts like hell

Father
In you I will turn to
Not allow myself the worry
May it just be the pain I have always
suffered on that side

Bless my children
My dog
The human race

Keep close as I am
holding of for dear
Life

Bless this family
Let them see what
Unconditional love is all about

Be my rock
Humble
As I am still learning
The only way to true peace
Is turning it ALL over to
You

Save us all from fear
As you take charge
And drive my train
It is so good
To have You taking care of
Me
And my
Family

Thank you Father
For your constant
Love
Me

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Father
Brother
Mother Mary

Thank you for my gifts I am about to receive

Bless me the strength
To keep fighting the fight
Daniel
Your life is a testament to our Brother
Who is of the Father
Let me pull myself up
Not complain
But know you have everything under control
and Your watch
May i be touched by someone who shows
Me Your Love
Let me be the the example to my family
Let my sisters know who You are
Bring us together not in sadness
Father
Your message so great
Though I should never fear You
Your awesome power has the most beautiful appearance
Yet it's power can be just as easily destructive
Mother Nature You Designed
We are responsible for this planet
We are responsible for Your message
We are responsible
May I be granted Your warm touch
Thank you Father
Love
Me

Father
Brother
Mother Mary

Thank you for my blessings I am to receive in my day

Blessings as I share my love for You

Blessings as I have You holding my hand
in everything

Blessings as I have a program I am dear to

Blessings sobriety is lifted today

Blessings that I have been given from amazing
people

Blessings I had the time I did with our family dog
I miss so much

Blessings I had unconditional love given by our family
member
I can still see his eyes looking into mine

Blessings to have You in my life today

May the world see Your unconditional love
pouring the wine sharing the bread
A representation of The Lord

You are in my life
and carried me when need be

Now I am holding Your hand each day
Hoping I can manage it
As You would want me to live it
In Jesus I Trust
Amen
Love me

Father
Brother
Mother Mary
What better way to say thank you for the good memories
Thank you for what I am to receive in my day
May I do your work
As this is your wish
I truly beleive I have no control over the pain and sorrow my children have inflicted upon me
However badly of a job I may have done
I certainly do not deserve some of the hurtful things such ads
You should have abortated me
I told her my first born this was something I understood
As I too did not ask to be born into a family like mine
But this much I know
I have NEVER abandoned my children
I worked the night shift so they did not have to fret they had nobody
I did not have a mother who was supportive
She was too busy in her new relationship
Three months after my fathers suicide
Her new boyfriend and son moved in
I left the home at that time
This my sisters would complain about
This is the past
Yet today
Being the best possible mother I could be
With what I had to work with
And most times it be You My Father
For I could not have come this far without you carring us
It is not a good feeling to be sad
And this is where I have to recall the good times
when we had the good times
On their birthday I would call them on the time they were born and celebrate it for twenty four hours
I woul ask them what they wanted for their birthday dinner
This ended a few years after I got sick
Many things gone sour
But Heavenly Father
You are my Savior
You are my Light
Bring me the blessings only You can bring
The feeling of a flannel oversized shirt with the
scent of Love
That cannot be found here on earth
Heavenly Father bring me the warmth You BLESS me with when I truly submit my will
And let You take over
In Jesus I trust
In my Father
I beleive
Amen

Father
Brother
Mother Mary

Thank you for your gifts

Letting Your will be my driving force
I need You now more than ever

Heavenly Father
My brain knows what needs to be done
Not for me but the good of my child

Heavenly Father
She left
Only to call late at night
Walking the streets
Called her father to pay for her McDonalds food

He has no clue what is happening
maybe he does
but not the truth
and he not a truthful person himself
will never see this
but this my daughter will learn


Heavenly Father
Why is she treating me
As if she were head of household
Helping herself to the orange juice that is
for my granddaughter
she is sick with a cold
Opened a new bottle
as the one opened already
was overlooked
then again she doesn't like it watered down
Why did I let her come back home
i agreed and said we shall talk when she gets home
that never happened
she asked after her shower
can we talk in the morning
this never happened

this
After calling upon You for strength in this all
As much as it hurts
I cannot walk away
I am responsible for my granddaughter
I am responsible for her feelings
and needed to protect her from what is not her fault
like i needed to protect Corissa from her sibling who was behaving
in such a destructive way
You know Father
she couldn't be exposed to that behavior
and in the end horrible results

Calling her mother yesterday morning
Asked her to call when she woke up
Never to hear from her until just a moment ago
She says good morning
I see you called
more like
good afternoon
Reminded her about my request yesterday
and she calls now as if nothing
Why Father
Why

What am I to do
I want to sell everything and just go
Just go
To the end of the earth
Just go

Why
What makes my child think she can abuse me
Over and over again
walk around and not think her behavior
isn't impressionable
Over her obsession with her phone and social media
Only You know Father
I do not need this in my life
I have this child to raise
And she has abandonment issues already because
of everyone walking away from her
Or just not being in her life
From my mother
To my sisters
To my children
Nobody
All we have is each other
And it is my daughter that she slept with
It was me who had to calm her fears
Not knowing what to expect from yesterday
to today
she hugged me
and made me wait
this i did Father
You know
Here we go all over again
She said we'd talk in the morning
It is the afternoon
she made me wait
I will call her in my room to see what decision she has made
Yesterday Heavenly Father
It was the first time I let You take over
It did not hurt that badly
But now this morning to start where it left off
I got up to feed my grandchild
She did not even do that
She was on the phone texting
This is what her life has been reduced to
On the phone with a new girlfriend
The last one wound up in the hospital
Depression over my child cheating on her

Heavenly Father
I did not raise my child to be as she is
this is not the example i set
It is not okay
Like she say's
I'm making a big deal about this all

Heavenly Father give me the strength to handle this situation
with grace
May Your word do the work
Use me Father
I cannot hurt like this any more
In Your name
Bless us
Amen

Father
Brother
Mother Mary

Thank you for my blessings I am to receive

Dear Father
I am no ready to completely let go
And it is killing me already
Pleases come to me and hold me tight
Everything around me is in pain
Deep sorrow
The kind that makes on bleed

Why Father
Why
Why
Must it be like this
You are in control
Use me
Make it not hurt so much
Maki it go away
Please

Heavenly Father
What h over my babies
As I am here alone with Eva
It is not a good morning
Waking and crying was in th past
It is back
Help me help myself out of this horrible mess
Let me live my life for a change
without worry
Just for me
I have to get the car inspected
Go to the doctors tomorrow
Keep us safe on the road

Father
The tenant above me is so inconsiderate
Waking me up twice in the morning
And having to go back to sleep
I don't think so
Giving her till end of week
I am a decent tenant
Respectful of others

Why is it so difficult
So simple
I know
Let You take over
Okay
Again
Heavenly Father
In Your name only
Please help me through this day
As yesterday is gone
And tomorrow is tomorrow
Let me live in my day
With You in my heart gut and soul
You are My protector
Heal me Father
Bless my family
Humble them to their knees
I Jesus I trust
In My God I believe
Love
To the world