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05-01-2014, 07:19 PM | #1 | |||
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What if your day has not gone as planned?
What if things seemed off kilter? What if pain was awful and life ......well, sucked.....? Could you, would you be able to feel Blessed? I submit yup, you would. It is all in perspective and perception. There is something, no matter how seemingly tiny, which is for each today a blessing. Truth be told, this is what has buoyed me through the decades. Blessing. A sky with warmth, or cold, with stars of night or sun of day, A family member, or several of them, A friend.....even one A meal, for which I am thankful Something to wear A kindness, whether conferred or received, Love, no matter whence it comes, to be loved even in friendship is blessing The simple thing of just resting....between spasms of pain sometimes How about taking a single Ghirardelli chocolate chip and letting it melt on my tongue.....a blessing, that.... I so enjoy blessings..... Don't you? |
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05-01-2014, 07:45 PM | #2 | |||
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did someone say chocolate
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05-02-2014, 10:08 AM | #3 | ||
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Blessings come in many forms; but "chocolate", "sweets"; Oh My....I am overdoing many of these blessings lately. Unfortunately, they do not take a positive look on this body; but; "Oh Soooo Good" at the moment. Maybe, then, just for a little while instead of pain; we enjoy.
Yes indeed, Blessings are there, comes in many ways, just need eyes to see them. They are there!!! Gerry |
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05-06-2014, 09:42 PM | #4 | |||
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My body aches so badly
All I read is the bleak prognosis of secondary cancer The pain described I experience Oh let this not be true My blood will be taken and I will be scanned by a new machine that will go to the molecular level That will be in two weeks Father stop my brain from doing anymore Mother I cannot imigine the pain leaving my family behind Brother hold me hold me tight Squeeze the pain from my body All symptoms are there America Cancer Society on matatastic disease my breast cancer is primary and loves bone my hips knees feet throb as I mention time and time again my elbows my change in urinating including bowel and of course to opioids used help that my pain in the bones hips started after removal of both breasts Brother carry me Father make me strong again My Spirit bruised Previous problems seem to be trumped the ****** up turd is I prayed to bring me home the pain unbearable This new type of scan machines name "I Thrive" is what my new internists shall do along with a slew of blood work To have read all I could scares the turd out of me Life expectancy is two years This I did and should not have read and I did What else am I left with I know my body something is going on And I pray for it to be a miracle at work Rip it from my body melt it away Keep me sane We just came from court I have custody of my grandchild Corissa needs me Eva needs me my children need me will I be spared to still be here for them I can't explain the hurt the pain the fear of leaving them behind as they are not doing well physically too Michael my boy will have heart surgery Christine has diabiaties with her drug addiction she fights everyday Saraeve and her epilepsy Corissa lost in this world I must help her and Eva now and I have only my two sisters younger than I both also fighting their demons and that's it A father who checked out by killing himself A woman who birthed us and wants nothing to do with us as her man and his children became hers And there she wrote Hold on to me Father Brother Mother Mary I do believe Forever yours Me
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05-06-2014, 10:44 PM | #5 | |||
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Eva, I read your posts and the pain you face unimaginable, yet there it is in black and white. How is it you could be served with more than your fair share of the pie.
I know it's frightening to have read up on all that you have, I hear you lamenting that you did, yet I too would do the same. We are not women who sit idly by waiting for what may pass our way. Better to be prepared, better to know what needs to be done to live what life we have to the full in the time that we have, better to safeguard the future of those who will always know what you have done for them and better to pray for the miracle that may come, all this rather than be taken unawares. We, your NT family are with you, say what you must, rant when you need and cry without fear. We are here for you every step of the way, painful as it will be for you, we will still live on in hope and in awe of all that you have achieved. I say we because I know it will be more than just me. |
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05-06-2014, 10:57 PM | #6 | |||
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Your words sooth my heart some you have me pegged thank you for the support it sucks when things just pile on and the mound never seems to move Yet the fear of the unknown and the wait well you know of course You and all here do allow me to share and know as you have already reached out For this is God at work through persons such as yourself who has an understanding And in it all for sure is a reason My love to you my friend my shoulder as well Forever Me
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05-07-2014, 11:43 AM | #7 | |||
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Brother Mother Mary thank you for another day going to bed crying waking up crying is not a good thing to work myself up is senseless yet there still are no definitive answer yet i have a hard time as it is yet i want to educate myself so in the company of my doctor i have an understanding of what he is saying this is what i do try to get as much information about my diagnosis this past January i want so badly for the pain i feel in my lumbar area that is active not be the worse case scenario secondary cancer of the bone primary my breast cancer crying crying crying just increases all the bad things that are happening to have two surgeon tell me will not do surgery "to many things are going on" OKAY what the blank does that mean here now a doctor has taken me on as a new patient not brushing off my diagnosis Father help him show him what must be done "i am a very interesting case" he will not stop this means the world to me i do not want to be a burden nor do i want to die prematurely oh what a horrible feeling this is it is so hard to sit idle and wonder Father i lack happiness i don't mean my children or grandchild all are my joy but the happiness that shows on my face not the frown sadness unknown fear all poison it is recommended i entertain the pool something we already do and it does do wonders looking forward to it your Love should be enough i need help i must find happiness if i continue to feel as i do i bring everyone else down hence isolation in my room wondering wondering what next thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven AMEN!
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