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02-24-2016, 08:27 PM | #1 | |||
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It felt great calling my shrink on his crap
It felt so right And he knows what he said Shame on him Just like the rest of them in my life Neurosurgeon botched Breast augmentation botched I have been a great patient And have been let down by my health care takers What they are for certain are is TAKERS OF A PATIENT AND THEIR MONEY MONEY MONEY I FEEL LIBERATED AND IT IS EMPOWERING LOVE ME
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02-25-2016, 08:23 PM | #2 | |||
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Brother Mother Mary What obstacles are put before me I am doing all I can to take care of my mind body and spirit Heavenly Father why so difficult Why does it have to be so hard My job taken from me I cannot afford the vitamin DEPLIN script required My insurance does not cover it And my doctors are not interested in it Therefore the help is passed on from dr to dr And I have no say so A *ucking vitamin And to get what I need from DEPLIN through the next alternative is to take over the counter vitamins B's with l-methylofolate and some other stuff according to one site They are not addressing my depression And alone No one to help me Im trying to be as pro active as possible Shot down every single time And I cannot find a sight that could suggest which stuff to take and how much It is 15mg of DEPLIN my shrink reluctantly called it in to my pharmacist I am on such a roller coaster Who the hell cares And why should the Not enough kickbacks Will be calling the pharmaceutical company and am hoping for some help Be with me Father Let me not go through this without you at my side Sweet Mother help me help myself Amen
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03-01-2016, 06:37 AM | #3 | |||
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Brother Mother I will go through this day and fight This is what You want me to do Give up Not yet I am awaiting for a miracle After feel beat down Three hours of sleep If I'm lucky DEPLIN should be delivered sometime this week After long research on the product I would be a fool not to give it a chance I did the best I could for myself And called the company directly I can have the product for $58.00 a month This I can swing not the $150.00 the pharmacist told me he would sell it to me for $100.00 Not doable I am eager to start this vitamin I have been on this roller coaster ride for sometime now Having to wean myself off of the Xanax is taking a toll I am doing my very best this You know Father I will not be the one to take the breath away from me and bring me home I will be patient The is what You want I will do my very best This I will do The people here on NT have and continue to keep me a float My Blessings always near This much I know Father pleases ease the pain and struggles just a bit I trust in You Jesus Amen
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03-04-2016, 12:16 PM | #4 | |||
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Brother Mother i have much on these shoulders to have had and will continue to come to as everyone has their opinions all intentions good we want to think that we all share the same when infact we only have one thing in common we were born all else has been a hell of a ride Father let me humble myself understand that i mean no harm or have a serpent tongue my God hear my prayers help me calm when the storm is fierce hold me tight as i need your touch the withdrawal is kicking me down and then added stress as i try try so hard not to whine or bellyache let me instead remember my cause for taking a breath entering this cold world let me remember the sun, stars, moon and every thing including the rocks that are Alive let me praise Your name i am reminded of the cross i must carry i do this alone this is my journey before i enter into Your Kingdom by Your Grace i am trying to be as human and humility is something i am lacking when i watch my granddaughter i think oh Jesus what did YOU go through for us blessed am i to have the Our Father blessed am i to want to do your work blessed am i to make positivity and priority for in Jesus i Trust Father guide me into the sun and not the abyss help me hold my body upright my head held high not full of myself for i am learning and life be my teacher thank You Father Amen
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03-05-2016, 09:51 AM | #5 | |||
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Brother Mother May I take all that is put before me with grace How do I balance the the ties that have been severed My children on their own road in life I will not be travel with them as once my two eldest blame me for their miserable life This is a very difficult to do This is not the children I know anymore And to be honest I do not like who they have become all over the root of all evil money It is not reflection of me as "things" can be replaced There may be residual of some things I cannot take back I'd be foolish to say the ugly me when at the hight of my drinking and my learned behavior seeing myself over them hitting them while i was going through PMS is a reflection of the old me And not to be proud As I do not question myself any more even though it was short lived damage has been done but never swept under the rug Father I have been a good mother to my children How they behave NOW is not of my doing Precious Father only You know what i was subjected to and how i swore if i ever did that to my children i then do not deserve the title "Mommy" young only You know what life was like the moment i took my first breath I was and is still in my heart am an Awesome mom I have had made amends My heart in it all My life with a partner given up for them this they do not see both have partners in their lives Sick I am To feel good the moment I open my eyes To be alive Let me feel that Father I have this body That has been open and honest to My brain and the most important people in my life my children and grandchild Always talking to them Letting them know of the unnatural behavior The destructive kind Never can they forget their childhood A better life I tried to give them then me just forgotten Father I have a hole in my heart Can you please fill it with Your warm touch Can You hear me calling Your name Can You touch my children's heart and forgive them For I cannot stand and refuse to be punching bag Bless my family Father i have given my all Amen
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03-06-2016, 09:30 AM | #6 | |||
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Father
Brother Mother i to be blessed by Your teaching today this body on a mend just one tiny hopeful message i to be blessed not to be in a state of disarray not anything i had control over i to be blessed not to sway from Your touch everyday i to be blessed that i can have a stronger more informed relationship with my youngest and my grandchild i to be blessed to see work on absolute progress dealing and raising my grandchild she wants to know about everything her famous line "what does that mean mimma" i to be blessed a more substantial relationship of my last child who lives with me i to be blessed to be a teacher of personal experiences and it be a positive i to be blessed able to always have You at my side i to be blessed You died for us to be debt free of Sin i to be blessed to know i can Trust You are in charge in guiding me moulding me to BE a good mother friend and maybe one day to have a partner for the rest of my days it has been lonely blessed my very special friends here you know who you are have been at my side at my very darkest hours blessed to do your work and spread the Word in "Jesus" i trust Father hear my prayer i know as You know this broken body i have some respite in my life keep me safe as i withdraw from a medicine in my life Father watch over my children as i start to take care of ME and not feel guilty doing it Blessed to have a poem "the Our Father" promised Me deliverance from all evil amen i to be blessed to be Graced by Your constant Love let me learn how to find peace with my enimies i to be Blessed i give thanks in Your name forever and ever Amen
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03-07-2016, 07:09 AM | #7 | |||
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Father Mother Brother Blessings in my day to come Allow me the strength to push through My shrink calls twice How he did not like my seperating Time to let him know Bless is all father
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