Pooh-

Praying even now.
Today may be a brighter day.

Lifting you up to HIM.

Love,
Mark56

dear friend
you are a smart woman
with a fabulous career
a rewarding career
a blessing
you have the capacity to see
and your professionalism
your intuition speaking to you
as you know and personal horrible inept
behavior
many awesome suggestions
and yet i understand your position
you are a awesome woman
you have been a servant helping
over the years
what ever decision you make i'm sure
You Will make the best choices as hard
as it Will be
life isn't fair
but your life and job of choice
unselfish in every way
i celebrate your endurance
i have lost my ability to work
and at times too take care of myself
something i must do with my stupid pride
i have done all with God at my side
i live have my life in my bed
it hurts from tip of head down both my arms
and legs from toes to finger tips
my spine at my surgery site my lower back
debilitating a bleak future and for depression
to take hold like never before
i so understand
i worked all my life
starting at age five and i'm fifty three
came this far did so so so much
for it to be taken away
my job my jobs
and i won't lie i become so angry
so so angry
my life seems and in in some aspects
over
the wonder will anybody ever want me
the thaught of growing old alone
as i made my choice to do my job and
raise my children
ex husband non complaint
i understand
it isn't easy
and become plain old tired
pray your not where i am
but i do very much understand
God Bless
me

[FONT="Century Gothic"]Of insanity.....Some how I just don't seem to get it through thick scull... I just keep trying to do the same stuff.. loosing more every day. Too many long days, not enough rest days in between. Stuff going on that should not be as far as my monster. Having to do more things to be sure we are safe from things and people who would try to harm me and or my family. I continue to rant and rave about the lack of response from local law enforcement, health and human service in both Nebraska and South Dakota, Child Protective in these two states is a joke. I have told a local law enforcement that should "something" happen. I will walk through hell to be sure that they are made responsible for the lack of response. So sad that things have to happen before those who are responsible for safety of others and children act........

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Is there any chance of cutting hours??? I know the $$$ is important; but if you don't cut back; afraid the "insanity" chasing you is liable to catch up with you. The end result will be the inability to continue at all. Those pain zingers disrupt the ability to even think or make sense when speaking. Unfortunately; that comes from experience.

Don't know the full situation with keeping the father of the children away from them? Do you think there may be legal steps/threats warnings coming from the legal profession. Sometimes just receiving a "strong" letter from a lawyer may result in a scare attic.

You are in my prayers.:smiley pray:


Gerry

so so sorry with the added stress
in your life
i genuinely wish nothing
but some relief
to be able to take a breath
to muster up the energy
to fight for what is ahead
but most of all
i wish you the same i pray for
a day of nothing but feel good things
that our brain getting a break from the
craziness
to keep the Faith
all that happens
boils down to understanding
we are given adversities as test of our Faith
and if that means we as a family
here on this site is also a way to
reach out and ask for prayers
that you have the strength to
push through what we must
and rewards were promised
you have helped me in many ways
know that
it means more than you'll know
too many difficult challenges
still ahead in my family
priority
however i need to
in the front
i need to take care of me
and you need to do the same
and i many times have to do things myself
pay for the consequences
and recoup for the next cluster
comes along
my prayers and thoughts and prayers
may you find enough love to bring a smile
to your heart
and a belly laugh
i miss my dog
do you have one of Gods creature
to bring that happy unconditional love
like no other
love
me