I am a 24 year young woman who has just had a traumatic experience, or what I call the breakdown of my life.
I was hospitalized for a near suicide attempt. What led up to this was severe depression, alcohol abuse, and what I call sexual trauma (among other things)
I am not talking about rape, nor do I want to discuss it here.
The only way to explain it, really, is that I used sex and sexual acts with multiple partners for many years, as an escape.
For many, my sexual experiences could be seen as alcohol or drug binges, acting out, whatever you want to call it.
I feel, especially because I acted out in sexual ways with quite a few people the week before I checked in, trauma around this.

I feel alone because I have never encountered a woman who could relate. I feel alone because I don't know how to describe this in words. I feel alone because this thread is unlike any others, and I don't feel I'll get replies. I feel alone because I don't know how to have a healthy relationship at this point in my life, and I am afraid I won't find one in the future.

I want to talk about this, and I hope to start a valuable conversation.

~S