sounds like you have/did all the best you or anyone can do.this is tough and a strain on you.i think its more emotionally than anything else.its all this waiting is also can be tense full to.but that lawyer you had..good riddance.but we here got you:grouphug:

When I got my denial letter I was suicidal and had to go to the ER....I still cannot understand how the judge denied me. I have extreme anger against her.

that is exactly how i felt when i got my to!!!:eek::eek:..i all most got "commented"it was so hard:(...its how i found this site.but anyway.my lawyer called me immediately for the "appeal".but what happen to me now until then!:confused:..Hmmm:confused:..that was me "what happen till then"?:mad:I went to my congressman for help ..even to the "VA".i was such a wreck when i went to the "VA"they were the ones who wanted to keep me in the hospital!:eek:

Hello kittypaw
 

[I do know how you feel. I felt that way three times during the 4 years it took me to qualify. In that time, every dime two generations saved for was gone. A person cannot help getting sick or injured. This process is painful, and justice doesn't always work. Keep fighting for your rights and don't give up. I know Don too, and the anxiety this cause him and me both. I am sorry this has come into your life. I hope you have a lawyer or assistant to help you re-file and continue your fight. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. ginnie:hug::grouphug:

waiting for a ssdi approval
 

yes,it can be a daunting task dealing with ss and waiting for ssdi approval and some people actually give up,most when they are denied the 1st time.this is what social security wants.they make it so hard to get benefits that most people like I said actually give up hope and move on.however,persistance pays off if your willing to have a little patients and realize that your financial future is at stake here especially when you paid into the program while you were working.don't give up...

whining alert
 

Advance warning this is rather long - just read through most post - so please skip it if you are not in the mood to read a bunch of whining.

I am just starting my journey down this path, I don't have any sort of stress from denials or the stress of the application process yet.

Plenty of feelings though about getting to a place where it's clear that I am not going to be able to return to work as I had planned. I have loved my work as a nurse. Not all the staff I work with for sure, but my patients. Right now I feel like a failure, that I didn't do better. I feel like my co-workers are likely judging me & thinking I'm a fraud, I also feel bad whenever someone asks about my work & I end up explaining. It's just a loss - I will grow a thicker skin in time. Do others feel this way - at least at first? Like people are judging them as a scam? I have all my limbs & I can walk, etc. I wish pain showed on the outside because then it would be clear.

All of my hobbies are active ones, except for reading. Been active in dance all my life & at least for now it's clear that is out of the picture. The surgeon said I was fine to go back to class - I used to take 3 classes a week & I have not taken 3 classes in the 6 months since my surgery. I tried the most basic, beginning level one (basically glorified walking) and took it easy. My pain has been off the charts the past 5 days. I can't do any real housework, I do manage to pull a few weeds but I can only do it for 20 minutes or so a couple times a week - by bringing a gardening chair out - the bottom is rounded so I can tip forward without having to bend. I have a huge yard & it is a hot mess, with the limited amount of work I can do.

Anyway that's it. This just bites. I never asked for this, never expected it. I've worked for decades & have come back from many injuries & surgeries, what have you. Malingering is not in my blood, have never asked for pain meds before. I've been a patient for over 2 decades in the hospital system / clinic I am seen at now - I have no history of med seeking. None of that makes any difference now - it's clear I am getting the junkie treatment.

I have been going through hell with my journey down this SSDI path. I just don't know what more I can do. I have been battling the process since December 2010. I am currently waiting for an appeal hearing. I have just fired my second attorney and just hired a third.

The first attorney never submitted medical records timely, repeatedly lied to me over and over again. I almost lost out on my appeal for hearing because he told me that he filed for the appeal on Feb 19 and I called social security for another reason and just by luck asked how my appeal process was going and they said I had 10 days to file because it was never done. This was early April. When I called the lawyer he just stuttered his was through so I fired him and hired another. My case sat in her office for 3 months. She did nothing at all to it. Never even opened the box of medical records i left with her.

I called ODAR for an update and they said I was just denied an on the record. I asked them who requested the OTR and they said they just pulled it themselves. I was still confused why I would have been denied the OTR because I had 3 different RFC forms filled out all saying I could not work. One was from an orthopedic that has been treating me for 14 years. I was astonished again as to why I was denied. After talking to the ODAR rep I found out that the new attorney did nothing! never even submitted the 3 RFC forms that I had gotten filled out. Needless to say she was fired immediately the next day. I just signed on with my 3rd attorney. I can't take much more of this.

It is so stressful, I have lost my marriage of 15 years over this whole mess. I am getting very close to going off the deep end. If it weren't for my 2 small children I know for a fact that I would have just given up and ended my life. This is the most embarrassing and demoraling thing any person can ever go through. You are truly disabled and can not function like a normal human being and the system makes you sweat, cry and beg to get what you should be entitled to. But they go ahead and give a junkie benefits on their first try within 4 months.... I just don't understand....

very sorry about your marriage:(..that this stress your going thru brought you to that.we here understand.believe me we do.we are not saying that to be sympathetic.you feeling your having are part of it.it doesnt make it right though.it part of this system that your going thru will drive you to it.i have been there and a whole lot of member here are to and still are.its why me and another member here ("LegalMania")started this thread.and 3yrs later its still going .we give the these people so much info and its still is not enough!!:mad:what more do they want,you ask..thats what so difficult about all this,but in the mean time we still wait,wait and wait.but here there is no waiting.You can call on us any time .were all ways here to listen and try and help if we can:hug::grouphug::)

I appreciate all your support. It has been a long hard road. I just don't know which way to turn anymore.