I am glad you got SSD. I too have that, and I HATE not working. I was an artist who looked down into a magnafier, and made very small animals in sculpture. I had a 30 years business I had to give up. I ruined my cervial spine working at this craft. Now I am doing a limited amount of mosaics, where I can look forward, on a bench with a board that is upright. I don't have to look up or down that way. This is nice, but it isn't my passion. It does give me a creative release at least, so i can do something. I do miss my job, my career, and travel.
You like cars and homes. The selling or flipping of homes has been going on in my neck of the woods, and is not right now very profitable. I live in a high tourist area. You also like to read. sometimes publishers have a research dept. where they hire people to read books critically. Are you a mechanic? Or is your love of cars, just to have one and enjoy it. I can't sit still either. I also help an older woman clean her home. Even though I limp doing it, I would rather do something than just sit at home. That has been terrible for me too.
Most of my emotional troubles come from the fact I had to give up my occupation that I worked at for so long. I too am a reader. What book are your currently reading? Maybe we can exchange some good book ideas. Have a good day, hope something comes into your life to bring peace. ginnie