and he actually didn't, he got caught up at work . so we had a home cooked rib dinner his house, then i left and hung out with my cousins. think he may have been mad about me leaving after he cooked but oh well , rome wasn't built in a day and i have had a few problems with him over the tears, yes i said years this is our 3rd go around , he always needed space now my turn gotta run bye deb

Cool! I'm glad that he didn't stand you up, Deb. It's happier to know that he was behind because of work - rather than just being a meanie / no-show.

I hope you are having a painfee day


Yeah it was alright though nor what i had planed. He's ok but has some issues. This is ur 3rd time around, amd i have told him that tis time i will ot become serios witth him, as he has hurt me the other 2 times, he's not one too easily commit, but at this stage i don't want to. after my last boyfriend who was a total loser great looking though and 10 yrs younger, he looked and was built like an addonis, but was a lazy sack of u know what and could never understand my pain he didn't want to hear it but had no problem telling me his--- which was a lie total hypocondric, he wanted me to take care of him lol. this one we have a long hstory, and i just want to enjoy, it seems the more i don't pay attentiomn to him the more he does me hah. so this week i made the mistakes of e-mailing him too much i am learning so i think i may let hhim alone foe the next week after tonight (maybe tonight) You see I have basiccally been on my own for the past 20 years and very set in my ways, i want a friend to hang with but i don't want marriage or live with anyone, the last boyfrind was just to sufficating and had a big drinking problem plus lived at home with mom no car i think you get the pitcher. this one i don't know what it is he is not all that good looking though not bad, works 2 jobs but has a wondering eye, thats why he broke up with me last time he wanted to see someone else wel it backfire on him as wwhile he started dating so did i and boy did that get to him, but it messed me up as blondy was a total jerk and it took 1.5 yrs to get rid of him and he still bothers me tells me he will kill me, haha,well mr. 6'4in ran like all hell when i went after him all 100lb 5'3.anyway i think my new (old) one his getting ready to dump me again it will be his lss as boy do we have chemistry. well thanks for listening i think i got off track how's your love life? I quess the closer thurs. come the more nervous i get, was having an aniety attat this morning and dumb me took a xxanax that my mom gave me which did help alot but now i am afraid that the doc will do a urine test even though i didn't have to sign a contract and he didn't say that i couldn't take what the other doc gives me, i did verbalize the meds i am on, and he seemed fine with it, but besides the attact i had this morning my right hip hurt like all bejusite. i could hardly walk and it seemed to keep popping out do you know what this could be, i did work my butt off yesterday and have to go on an estimate soon plus 2 jobs today-- i think i am pushing alitle to hard, besides that my neck has really been hurrting alot feels almost like a pulled muscle and that has been happening for the past 3 days? do you have anymore advice for me?
I am going to ty and help others later if i can keep my eyes open and i don't get home too late- sometimes i have to go straight to bed- as you know this crap changes your whole life. well thanks for letting me get al this stuff off my chest, i really don't have anyone that i can talk too deb