[ejbpesca]

OK. this is hard to do, but it is getting serious. Those of you who know me over the years may recall my spinal history. Without going all into that let's just say I have nerve damage from conditions and surgery.

I am numb in various places over my body. I have so little feeling in my calves you could put a cigarette out on one and I would not feel the burn.

I can walk but I stumble.

OK...now the embarrassing part. One certain place seems to be numb too that is the very thing that makes me male. Ok ok..don't laugh.

I am thinking of just simply giving up since this has gotten so frustrating and embarrassing especially when the time is right and I cannot function.

Viagra seemed to work at first but then lost its ability to cure the problem. Ever heard of that happening? I am very depressed about this and wonder if it is just all over at 55.

I know this is a touchy subject but maybe some of you have experienced the same and could give advice. I don't mind a woman answering due to their experience with husbands with nerve damage etc.

What I thought would be a fun part of retirement has left me. Very sad.

jb