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Blue,
Of course you deserve the good things!!! Everyone does!!
God doesn't always give us what we want...but he always provides us with what we need.

This cake you speak of, though it is not a common cake for you.... sounds beautiful and delicious...but have you given that thought that this cake may not be for you as maybe it's too small, maybe too big, maybe it's too sweet, maybe not sweet enough...

Please know what you are seeing may not be good enough for you on the inside... maybe the cake you want sounds good and looks good but is not good. Yes, this cake you dream of exists...but is out of your reach for some reason not made clear to you.

God often lets us see and experience many beautiful things that would cause us great harm... Lightening shooting across the sky is beautiful...but to touch it would likely kill us. Lava flowing from a volcano...beautiful too... but to touch would severely burn us...likely even take our life.

God also brings us beautiful things that cause no harm and make us happy just when we need to experience them the most. Like a rainbow after the storm.

Don't stop dreaming of the good things you want in life... just know that they may not come when you want them... they will come when you need them...it may not be the exact thing you wanted but if you give it a closer look you will see it's exactly as it should be... and most likely will come when you quit looking for them.

I hope this makes sense... Blue you do deserve the BEST that this life has to offer!!!


Abbie

(((Blue))) Fasten your seatbelt, sweetheart. This rough ride will pass. Baby yourself with something you love.

and the white chocolate cake would be wonderful, but what about that yellow cake with the raspberries and candied pansies over there? If not, what sort of cake is in the next bakery? One you never thought of trying might be just the exact one for you.

Never leave anything good in life untasted...just a bite is worth hanging on for.

I know we don't know one another, Blue, but I am here for you, and with you...I understand too.
Let's get a cookbook and see what we can dream up?

I am glad you do not have a gun.
I am glad you have the talent and grit to go through a PhD in the sciences.

i wanted to say something about this particular point:

it is very simple with me. sometimes i find sunlight cheery, warming, comforting. but other times, specifically if i am in a very very dark place, it overwhelms me. it upsets me more.

with me, i believe it is the contrast that is upsetting: the brilliance of the sun against the darkness of my feelings. so, when i have been so dark on the inside, but the sun decided still to splatter itself all over the outside, i would call this "mood-incongruent weather."

i am glad you can talk to God. it doesn't matter if you want to complain or ask for things. Being able to talk to God is good.

Also see if you can hear or see God sometimes. Some do it with a sort of meditative prayer. Another way is actually quite tangible. Try getting near a plant or another creation of nature... (NOT MAN MADE) and observe it. carefully. trace all its perfection and its imperfections... a bud with a dew drop glinting diamonds and rainbows off it. a withering leaf with an unsightly gaping hole eaten by a caterpillar... think of the butterfly that came to life by feeding on that leaf. Trace these physical paths and causal paths with your mind, in Creation, and you will see something no less than Divine. and maybe realize that it is all connected. all intertwined. and that you are no less... you are part of all this. we all are.



~ waves ~ hoping you start feeling better

Hello dear all,

Sorry for not writing before, I just came here and thanked because I couldnt write as I was very touched and couldnt stop crying............

You always make me feel better and happier

(((barbo))) I couldnt talk to anybody as I was crying at the church.... a woman gave me a prayer to read, and told me I would feel better... I actually did... and realised the people there probably had bigger problems than me... I ended praying for everybody That felt good.

(((Alffe)))

(((Abbie))) That was a very, very beautiful post !!! you touched me deeply in my heart !!! You know, I cant stop dreaming... sometimes I wonder if that's my problem... I dont know how to manage my dreams... I always want to reach them, and, sometimes that causes me trouble...
Im re-reading your post... it is pretty and wise... Thank you so much Abbie !

(((Doody)))

(((da duck))) Your post also touched me so deeply... I couldnt stop crying... you are so right... very wise... thank you for talking about cakes for me !!!

(((waves))) you are very smart honey !!! you always have explanations for all the weird things that happen to me !!! Thanks for all that stuff. It makes sense... I will be "careful" when getting out to the sun light after staying in a dark room for 5 days

I want to leave blessing for you all...

I wanted to write before, but my mind was... all messed up !!!

I have the impression Im not expressing everything I would like to, but, oh yeah I LOVE YOU !!!

Hello dear all,

Today is an important day for me...

If you read this and have sometime, could you please say a prayer for me ??

Im still trying to eat that cake, so, if you can help me with your prayers...

Thank you very much !!!

Blue....

Sending prayers...

I understand your feelings and frustrations about this cake...

Makes me wonder how this cake feels about being enjoyed by you... is this cake giving you any clear cut signs that it does or doesn't want to be enjoyed by you?

Have you made any attempts to let the "cake" know you are interested?

Or is it just something you are nearby to and you see that it is beautiful and you want to enjoy?

Remember... Rainbows are beautiful but no matter how hard we try... we can NEVER touch them... we can only enjoy from a distance and only for a limited amount of time.


Abbie

Hi Blue

Maybe I can't be as profound as everyone else here but I can still pray for you and send you s.

Profound???

Happy New Year Lonely1...have you heard from our reyn????