It is exhausting indeed!!!! This is from one who has been fighting these thoughts since I was very young (first serious attempt at suicide, I was 12). I still deal with them, it gets to be a habit of thinking when the mind decides there is no other way out of the pain we feel. You have to re-train the mind to see options and also do what Pter says here, it does help. Been away so long... for the room. Fighting again It can be like a roller coaster ride through life.....everyone has problems to deal with and personal pain, it's how we decide to deal with them
New job and have to work, I will try to be around some...