Thank you all, ((Dmack)) ((Tamiloo)) ((Blue)) ((Barbo)) ((Alffe)) ((Addy)).


I'm really trying not to be lonely this time, I'm reaching out to those few people I know, trying so hard to be part of their life. I even went to a dance club last week, which is very different for me.

But, no one's talked to me since...

Looking for something, ANYTHING, to get me out of the house today...


PS: By the way Blue, whenever I read your posts I feel like I'm reading about myself too!

What to do when you are so blue?
it may work, or it may not
you can try, or you can sigh
reach out and touch someone
take an intrest in someone elses life
doubt it is normal, but intresting none the less!

Keep going - you're doing great!

How are you doing hun ??

Wanted to get real high. I went to the airport.
Then I was down. Elevator went to the basement.
I was feeling so blue. Paint store had just the right shade.
I was sooo confused on what to do it was clear as mud.
Was under the weather till I stepped in from the storm.
My record had me "feeling groovy"
So mad till I found Glad zip lock bags
It was bad to be sad, till I turned that frown upside down
Was ill till I took a good pill
Needed a good time. Found my friends Johnny and Jack at the party store.
C. Morgan must have hit me, cause I was hung over the toilet all morning
Bored? get ripped!
I found cheerful, clothes were bright as ever!
Had a bright idea yeaterday with Mr. watts in the light bulb isle.
Had felt out of sorts, tried to call humpty dumpty, got voice mail. Whats's his deal?

Trip to Home Depot



The other day I went to the home improvement store; it was a trip. I started in the garden area looking for some rolled grass. That was some “GOOD” stuff I found. As I brushed thru the paint Dept I found a colorful gal with bristly hair. Stuck her in the cart too. We headed to the plumbing dept looking for nipples and just got tanked! We skidded over to the lumber area where we saw each other get ripped. It was a good day. We tooled over to the hardware section where we nailed and drilled. I was floored when I found the drapes did not match the carpet. I stuck with a nice classy strip vinyl. We cooled it off in appliances with a fancy freezer. Our last short stop shocked me senseless. For $30 the LED [Love Every Day] light bulb would shine brightly, just like the twinkle in her eye! I took two. She checked me out at the register, I did the same. See you next week!

My shopping list was: Sod, pipe, water heater, lumber, nails, drill, vinyl floor, freezer, light bulbs

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Every light bulb should be an LED. Each light should be a kind reminder of love, hope, happness.

Some of us are burnt out and need a change.
Some of us are 40 watt bulbs and manage our way in the dark
Some are 100 watt bulbs shining warm and brightly, leading others.
Then there are 1200 watt work lights.... keeping everyone up at night, scaring some who think it IS the light at the end of the tunnel, and just making the electric meter spin!

It's another day that the rest of the world is enjoying. It's the first day this year where outside it's warmer then inside.

And what I wouldn't give for someone to spend it with...

I remember that once I loved music, I was able to lose myself in it's beauty and just enjoy it... but now I can hardly stand to listen to music at all. Today I actually wanted to listen to music again, but fifteen minutes later I couldn't stand it anymore.

So now I sit alone, in silence.

I miss being able to find joy in life. I can't help but wonder if I am even capable of happiness anymore. I don't fit in anywhere, I'm not good at anything, and no one wants me around.

What are you supposed to do when you don't want to live anymore? How do I force myself to keep trying when all I can do is fail? How am I supposed to plan for the future when I have nothing worth living for?

What kind of music do you listen to?
I ask because I always enjoyed music with lyrics but after my accident I found music without words just music and have grown a hefty taste for it if ya know what I mean . . . i enjoy it more then the old music i used to enjoy.
do not sit alone go outside and smile at a stranger. you do not have to say a word to make anothers day and you will probly get a smile back!
We are here too if ya wanna chat. I will check back in a few .

I wanted to see if we could go to chats but you left and I want to tell you
that you have YOURSELF to live for! I think I might of said something wrong and hope you are okay and maybe have window open at least and enjoying that part of a warm day the smells the outdoor sounds.
Lonely1 WE WANT YOU AROUND! I am here and was hoping we could of went to chats. but sending a hug to find you and warm your insides . sorry your feeling so lonely and down right now... it is just a feeling that will pass. YOU ARE WANTED WE CARE !

PEACE
BMW

Wait a minute....

"no one wants me around".... HEY !!! I want YOU around me !!! And everybody here for sure !!!

Remember that tomorrow this could be just a bad dream.... so... keep hoping that tomorrow will be good !! a day full of surprises !!!

About music.... I like BMW's idea... You might enjoy music without lyrics... I know what you mean.... I have days when I HATE music too...

Thinking about you...