[thelonely1]

Nothing new, just another wasted day, another lonely night, another pointless weekend. The same as it's always been, the same as it always will be...

[Abbie]

You're not alone...


I know what lonely feels like.

[tamiloo]

Please don't feel alone...I think we all feel alone together. I feel alone because of how my pain defines my day. Often times I will let out a sigh and I'll asked if I'm okay...I don't want to say...remember my constant pain! I don't want to complain to much, don't want to be known as a complainer...

Gentle hugs for you!!

[DejaVu]

Hi Lonley1.
I am sorry you are feeling so isolated.
Solitude can be sweet, yet isolation can feel so lonely at times.
Anything you can join in on socially this weekend?
What helps you to feel les alone?

A chat on the phone?
A chat online?
Visiting an oline forum?
Watching a movie with an audience at the theatre?
Playing with a pet?
Walking in the park (where you see other people)?
Watching a cunny light-hearted comedy video?

What helps you to feel less lonley?
Anything help?

Hugs to you,
~DejaVu

[thelonely1]

Thank you all for the posts, I just wanted someone to know and care how I feel. I don't get any real human contact anymore, my only friend (besides here online) doesn't have any time for me, and I don't want to bother her by calling her all the time.

I feel like I don't have the energy to exist anymore. I don't have the energy to read a book, or play a computer game, I don't even have the desire to eat. It takes all I've got just to get up and go to work, and that's hardly worth the effort at all. I just want to sit, and not have to move, or think, or exist...

Thanks again for the thoughts and the words.

[BlueMajo]

Im here too !!!

Hey, I dont mind If I have to repeat this to you everytime you feel ike this...

You are special... you deserve to be happy... ok, you are very sweet and kind. We all here love you.

Please honey, look for help (a pdoc, a therapist, a priest, whatever you feel like) but you need energy to be here with us, and, how come you dont eat !? No, no, no... that sounds extreme...

We need you here.

If you dont have energy to fight, then, it is time to look for pro help... life is a fight... a war... it sounds sad or even stressful, but unfortunately is true... we need to fight even against ourselves... SO ! you need energy !

I will leave you a bunch of hugs, you know Im thinking about you and, I will leave you a song I want you to listen as someday you left a song ok ? pinky promise !? No, seriously, we love you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LPajZ0074Ks

I will come backlater to check if you have eaten and how are you doing ok ? If I need to become your virtual mother I will.

[DejaVu]

Hi Lonely1,
I am sorry you are feeling so alone.
It's sometimes tough to break the isolation.
Yet, we can do it...even a little at a time.

Blue has a good point, is it time to seek help?
Often, situations tend to get worse if we don't break a pattern.
As you had mentioned, we don't always have the energy to break a set pattern. Might even a short walk start to break the pattern of isolation?

Any chance you might make a plan to eat for some energy?
If that is not enough or you are unable to do this, might you be willing to seek some form of assistance? Maybe a type agreeable to you?

Do you want to sit alone? It doesn't sound like you really prefer to be alone most of the time?

What can we do to help?
Group hug for you

~DejaVu

[thelonely1]

I'm feeling a little better-ish now, and i do eat, just not as much as most people. I eat more because I'm supposed to then because I'm actually hungry, and sometimes I just skip meals entirely because I just don't care enough to bother making something. I might bring it up with a doctor, except there's dozens of things wrong with me that I have asked about and the answer is always "that's weird, I don't know what's wrong, it's probobly nothing serious, come back when it's killing you, that will be $300." I always ask, and it's always a waste of time and money, and money is not something I have.

Oh and Blue, I know that song! I heard it on the radio literally ten minutes before I made my earlier post. I remember because I was thinking that there was probably some meaning in the song that was applicable to my life, and it looks like you thought so too. Are you sure we're not long lost twins who can hear each other's thoughts?

Anyway, thank you ((Blue)) and ((DejaVu)) for taking the time to talk to me. Not many people would even go that far out of their way to be part of my life. In fact it seems like only people here want to have anything to do with me.

I'm going to go to bed and try to dream that I'm happier.

'Night all

[BlueMajo]

Well twin (because of course we are twins ! how could you doubt it !? ), I think you need to find a doctor that understand you and that you like... It isnt easy, I know... It took me several tries to find the right person... I heard the "you are weird" thing more than once too, and actually thought all doctors were the same s**t, until voila ! I found this doctor I love ! he is funny and make you feel life is easy... well, no, actually he make me feel like the song I send you, that life is difficult but that we have and can manage to live in it

I will tell you a secret: That song have saved me more than once.... Thank God Jared Leto decided to release it at the beginning of 2010 !
So, you will do me a favour, as I cant punch your arm everytime you start to fell sad and lonely and you cant do the same with me, you will listen to that song eveytime you start feeling down and I will do the same ok ? Deal ??

Never stop eating ok ?
What do you like to eat ??

Hope you are feeling ok today. Come talk to me ok ?

Love,
Blue.

[thelonely1]

Okay Blue, I will listen to the song whenever I need to.

And about the food, there really isn't anything that I like to eat.

All food is pretty much the same to me, it doesn't taste exactly the same, but nothing tastes any better then anything else. Does that make sense?

Hmm... just another unexplainable little medical anomaly...