[DMACK]

Well its gone midnight in the UK.....

And whilst the whole country tried to party in the world cup atmosphere at 3pm this afternoon ....i had to go to work.

Bare with me whilst i relay this story.[it has a meaning] and please forgive me those who are not football fans [by this i mean Soccer,,,,,,,,grrrrrr i hate that word the game is FOOTBALL..but that's another argument/debate for another day]

Last week when England got through to the next round of the world cup i was ecstatic.....for 5 mins.......
i then realised i had covered a shift to work for the Saturday thinking England would play that day as group winners.......well my American friends will know they won the group and therefore they played on Saturday.......
England played Sunday.........and i had not covered for that eventuality.

I covered every shift at work up to the final....but did not counter on the route we ended up on..
So to cut a long story short i had to work.


Last week was rather sad on this SOS forum......firstly Seamslike and then Thelonely1's post.

Both threads touched me deeply.............

The first a battle of years of supporting people, and now whilst suffering..... alone with little or no hope.
The second a tale of isolation , solitude, and despair.

Strange as this comparison may seem................

My football team throughout the year [not the national team] got to the final of one major cup this year and a semi final of another major final.. and lost both.

Needless to say [as a fanatical English football fan] i was distraught on both occasions....as with many football fans ...i have superstitions that go way to far....and i often believe my personal behaviour will effect the outcome of games my team plays..........IE ......I.Never speak the..name of the team we are playing on the day=we loose.......wear the wrong clothes=we loose.....shout before the game at the kids=we loose......OCD OR WHAT!

Well if your not a sports fan by now i have probably lost you...or your interest in this thread......so i will get to the point......



When my club team lost earlier in the year [twice] i went down hill pretty rapid.....i felt both LONELY and ABANDONED... i get it in my head i try really hard to do good, & that the big guy upstairs will help me out and give me and my team victory...........something i can jump UP and down about......scream with joy .....party for a week on...........BUT NO...we loose

Then today happens .....England versus Germany............[think of your team whatever sport.... playing AGAINST your arch enemy.... this is the feeling I had]

We have to win i thought.....................WE LOST............

Thankfully all the hostel residents were out.......no one heard my disappointment.



At gone midnight......i now reflect on that disappointment............it was easier than in 2006 [beaten by Portugal]..........or 1996 Euro championship beaten by Germany [on the eve of my fathers funeral] or even 1990 [beaten by Germany]

Why? because i had two previous club games that were important games and both lost..........they had prepared me for what happened to day..........


A bit like life itself really when you look at it...............we go through tribulations that on reflection that seem major at the time...but upon reflection we then handle real bigger issues much better than we ever imagine we could.......because we have experienced a bunch of the lesser issues all before.


I wrote in reply to Seamslike H.O.P.E [HAND OUT POSITIVE ENERGY] In the hope it would come back to me [or England] ..........i tried to reach out to Thelonely one.........To say i too am a lonelyone..........46 no real friends...or people i can ring up and say 'do you want to go out for a coffee' ....if i go out drinking......i drink alone.[and watch people....]

But i also remember saying to Seamslike..........My job is in the balance...and so too my wife...............

Well her job is safe ....[she is not on redundancy list thank you god].........Then yesterday i get a cheque & from the council a letter stating my property tax has been overvalued.........for 4 years i had been overcharged........£520.........[not much but could not have come at a better time TYG]


All this reminded me of one thing YOU DONT ALWAYS GET WHAT YOU WANT....BUT YOU GET WHAT YOU NEED.

Tomorrow then sun will rise......and i along with 70 million other England fans will bemoan the team [possibly for weeks] but the sun will rise again the day after and so on.....................[at least this time I WAS PREPARED FOR DISAPIONTMENT]

And among all that my wife still has a job..........and our bank balance is looking healthier......[only my job to go? positive thoughts for Wednesday please]


Sometime we walk through the forest...and never see the wood for the trees!!!!

HOPE..................

David

[Alffe]

David I'm happy for your positives! I'm beginning to think there are no quiet hours of the night...another huge, noisy storm last night..that makes three in the last 10 days but I'm thankful our trees didn't fall.

The United States seems to be latecomers to Soccer (football) but are rapidly becoming enthusiastic fans.

[DejaVu]

HI David!

I'd enjoyed reading your thoughts!
All positive thoughts for you today and Wednesday, as your Wednesday starts before mine, so I'll get an early start!

My very best to you and to yours!
~DejaVu