Addy - I used to live by this motto and had it posted on my fb too at a time ;) So nice to see it again after I've forgotten all about it.

Just wanted to add my two cents... after a lifetime of pebbles in my shoes....

Acceptance is the key. And what I like to think of as the biggest challenge in life. Accepting your past, your mistakes, your regrets, your family, your present, your future, yourself.

How to do it: I am still trying to figure out. But working on it. Family is a big one for me, as well as myself.

Baby steps. One day at a time.

:grouphug:

The great 'Gandhi'...................apparently was on his way to Calcutta by train.

When he arrived at the train station...thousands of admirers came out to greet him.

his entourage, were keen to keep the locals at a distance from him, but in the jostling crowd that ensued....Gandhi lost one of his sandals.....it came of his foot and fell in between the track side and a waiting train on a platform.

A station hand ....under loud vocal instruction. from his embarrassed superiors..tried to get between the platform edge and the waiting train to retrieve the holy mans sandal.

Gandhi....apparently said to the station hand..


'leave it good man it is of no importance'.....and in the next action through his other sandal in a similar direction.......
'Now it is of importance...because if a poor man finds them both he will have a pair of shoes to wear.'

Maybe....Gandhi realised walking with one sandal was like having a pebble in his shoe....and would have been very awkward.

Giving the second sandal up,,,,,,,so as to benfit someone less fortunate....may have relieved him of any pebbles in his footwear.....so he could continue to conquer mountains [MAYBE???? only my opinion]

My THEORY IS TAKE OFF YOUR SHOES.................walk barefoot at times...and feel natures pain...... maybe we too,
can then walk further and help others along the way?

David

Thanks, everyone, for your insight.

On my way home from work yesterday afternoon I stopped at a drop-in medical clinic. Since moving, I no longer have a doctor who sees me regularly so I wanted to get the name of one of the very compassionate doctors there who might possibly be taking new patients. No luck but I was able to get the name of a doc who can possibly take me on. I'll follow up on that later today.

In the meantime, I saw the doctor who was working.... and by the time he saw me, I was ready to just leave and say.... oh, forget it....

but I didn't... and I talked to him briefly about my overwhelming anxiety and sadness and whether or not I should up my anti-depressant...

I told him I just wanted to go home and drink... to bury my feelings... and knowing that was a bad move, I came to him...

so... I'll up my meds... and pray that this will make the difference...

I feel like I have to numb the pain... and with that, I pray I can rid myself of those not wanting to live feelings ...

Ghandi was a brilliant man.

I will take both shoes off... I have to... in order to survive this mind of mine which....

.... I didn't meant to end my post that way....

... this mind of mine which is betraying me... ?

Addy, so glad you were able to ask for help.... I will be hoping with you that it really does help and the increase makes the difference.

:hug:

Dear Addy

i wish you well with the increase in anti-depressant. you did a good job to go talk to the doc about increasing it.

remember that with some AD's, after you have taken the same one for a long time, they can stop working, but in that case often just changing to a different one will often help. so don't be afraid to go back to the doctor, if you don't notice enough improvement within the expected time period after the dose increase.

let us know how you are doing. :hug:

~ waves ~

Hi waves... yep, I'm starting to think that perhaps its time to change meds.... been on this one for many years... trouble is, I don't feel medicated on this one - and have no strange side-effects like dry mouth, dreams (nightmares), restless leg syndrome... all those things that other drugs used to do to me.... so I'm hesitant.

I now have an appointment for med September with a new doc - its called "meet and greet" - I guess we see if we're a good fit... interesting anyway. Then I'll start to think about med changes as that will give me plenty of time to see a difference with upping what I'm taking now.

I woke up in a great mood today... bright sunshine and happy thoughts... and with a visitor coming over to spend time at the pool with me this afternoon, I've got lots to look forward to. .... and tomorrow, my baby doll 2 year old grandaughter is coming over so that I have lots to be thankful for :)

I'll wear open-toed shoes today... so that the pebble can fall out when it gets in there! ;)

:sing: Addy

Dear Addy

i am glad your day started out well today. i hope it continued well. :hug:

~ waves ~

thinking of you today at the pool with babydoll grandaughter...have fun! You are worth it dear Addy. :hug: