Hi, My name is Melody and I was reading all the responses to your post. I have to ask you something. Is your pain level managed? I mean, are you in such unbearable pain that you can't think straight, or are you just tired of living?

There is a big difference you know. I completely understand the mind set of a person who cannot find any pain relief. I am not condoning suicide under ANY circumstance, but I can understand that when a person is in agony 24/7, that the thought might cross their mind. This is a perfectly normal thought process.

I wonder if you have any kind of support system to help you deal with what you are dealing with. You mention that you do not have children. Do you have a mate, a good friend, SOMEONE that can be there for you when you are at your lowest point?

We all need people. Either being a friend to them, or having them be a friend to us. Sometimes being a friend to others helps us feel better.

Have you tried reaching out to anyone? What was their response? You say you don't want to be a burden to your family. What if something happened to them instead of to you? No one wants this to happen but sometimes, we are dealt a certain hand of cards.

We will be here for you anytime you wish to post any of your thoughts or questions, or if you just want to come by and share some ideas.

We are very nice people with various maladies but one thing we have in common is no one judges anyone else. That is not our role.

I believe we are a compassionate group made up of different kinds of personalities. Just think about this. Years ago, you never would have been able to post your problem on a message board and have different people try to reach out to you.

You will be in my prayers tonight. Here's a hug.

I wish for you a brighter tomorrow, whatever tomorrow brings you.

Take care,

Melody