"I think that too little attention is paid to the anger embedded in nearly every act of suicide. It's easy to discern and sympathize with the hopelessness and pain that those who kill themselves are experiencing. But I think that it's important for families trying to come to terms with these losses to confront the reality that any person contemplating suicide has to weigh the devastation that he or she is about to inflict on loved ones.

-Dr. Gordon Livingston, psychiatrist and author, whose son Andrew killed himself in 1991 at the age of 22

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Well Dr. Livingston said a mouthful when he wrote that. I was so furious at Michael for taking his life and that anger added to my guilt. And no one, including me, could understand how I could be so mad at someone I loved and who had died! I remember going outside and shaking my fist at heaven, cursing a God who would let such a thing happen.

Acceptance, understanding and Peace were years away from us at that point in time.
My former neighbor is struggling with her anger at her son...now in her second year to grieving.

Mark is right....we all matter. Tom, are you with us?