I know I havent post much here lately...

but... right now I urged to....

Im so angry... Im crying of anger... I hate everything, everybody... myself... I just feel the necessecity of cut myself or something...

I dont know what to do.... no reason.... or actually, too many reasons....

My life is wrong.... every time I try something, it fails...

I hate everybody, they are mean to me, always bothering, interfering my life... I hate my existance,

Thanks for reading.

Ah, sweet , I'm so sorry to read this my friend

Anger is NOT a good feeling... it eats you up .... and makes you think destructive thoughts.... not good! ....

I hope that my hug from Canada reaches you and lets you know you are not alone... for I think of you often!

Oh Blue... I'm right there with you in spirit, feeling the same things you do.

Don't cut yourself. I know it sounds like a good idea, (which by itself is not a rational thought) but after you do it, it makes you feel stupid and ashamed whenever you see the scar. It's just your mind's way of trying to get control over something, anything, and physical pain is the only feeling you can force yourself to feel. I'm speaking from personal experiance, sweetheart.

I'm sorry you feel this way; I think of you often too, and I pray for you every day. Things will get better, okay? We're all going to be happy someday...

I hear you Blue and I'm so sorry you're feeling like that.

Are you able to identify the reason for your anger? Can you distance yourself from the cause?

Please don't harm yourself. We care about you and want to help if we can.
Keep talking to us ... we are here for you.

Blue, speaking from experience here. Self injury is only a temporary fix. it helps for the moment but unless you get to the source of what is wrong you'll do it again and again and again. sigh....... I know this cause i'm basically in the same boat you are in right now. feeling alot of anger.

I love your signature "signs" dear lady...you should remember to read them when you are in that pit of despair.

Hi Blue, I am so sorry you feel that bad, but I do know the feeling of hating. I did that for many years, and it nearly cost me my life. When I became disabled about 10years ago, I made a decision that cost me my family. I had a best friend, who I asked to come live with me. I needed the help so very much, I could not take care of my home and yard. My son in law took my daughter and my grandson away from me. I was branded a lesbian. He told me to my face I was not welcome in his home, nor around his children. If I did come and visit, I would not be able to be in the same room with his children without supervison. My daughter sat right there, and agreed with what he said. I was hurt beyond measure, and I still am. I hated for a long time, as it cause me to have a death in my family that never ends. I had to let the hate go, and go on with my life and try to get better. Hate can eat you up alive. I don't know if I can help you, but I do want to try. Please tap back if there is anything I can do to ease your heart. ginnie

Oh Virginia:

How sad. How truly sad. I have no idea if you were able to mend fences. And I don't know if you ever saw your grandchildren again. Oh my.

And all this because you had a friend come and stay with you?

Wow, isn't ignorance something??

I only hope that somehow, you were eventually able to seek out your grandchildren.



Melody

if you wanted a milkshake in France (and some other European countries), you'd have to ask for a frappe'. (the word is French... it has been adopted elsewhere.)

they can be made a little differently from one place to another, but that's basically what it is.

~ waves ~

Hello dear all !!!

First of all, yeah, chocolate frappe was like a milkshake buuuuuut, with water instead of milk....

Ginnie, thank you so much for sharing your story in this thread... so sorry !!! I hate ignorance.. and I hate when this moves people... You sure helped me a lot. Thanks !!!

Tonight Im not angry... Im... sad.... dissapointed.... my life is full of unfair stories and I cant handle it... seriously... I cant handle the fact that good people suffer and bad people is having a happy life... I actually think I have said this before here somewhere in the forums... why ??? I mean... I read somwhere that this has nothing to do with God, and that this was just part of life and that actually God was there helping the ones who suffer.... but my question is.... why do good people suffer "all the time" ?

I could give you a thousand examples.... a material one: The laziest person I know, have the best computer of all.... the one who works hardest, doesnt have a puter....

And, I could give you plenty more examples not with material stuff but health things or whatever...

I cant handle it !!! man, I feel depressed and dissapointed about life.... like.... I dont want to live anymore because no matter what I do, I will suffer every day....

No matter what I dream, I will never reach my dreams because no matter how hard I try, everything is going down....

Aw