I know I havent post much here lately...

but... right now I urged to....

Im so angry... Im crying of anger... I hate everything, everybody... myself... I just feel the necessecity of cut myself or something...

I dont know what to do.... no reason.... or actually, too many reasons....

My life is wrong.... every time I try something, it fails...

I hate everybody, they are mean to me, always bothering, interfering my life... I hate my existance,

Thanks for reading.

Ah, sweet , I'm so sorry to read this my friend

Anger is NOT a good feeling... it eats you up .... and makes you think destructive thoughts.... not good! ....

I hope that my hug from Canada reaches you and lets you know you are not alone... for I think of you often!

Oh Blue... I'm right there with you in spirit, feeling the same things you do.

Don't cut yourself. I know it sounds like a good idea, (which by itself is not a rational thought) but after you do it, it makes you feel stupid and ashamed whenever you see the scar. It's just your mind's way of trying to get control over something, anything, and physical pain is the only feeling you can force yourself to feel. I'm speaking from personal experiance, sweetheart.

I'm sorry you feel this way; I think of you often too, and I pray for you every day. Things will get better, okay? We're all going to be happy someday...

I hear you Blue and I'm so sorry you're feeling like that.

Are you able to identify the reason for your anger? Can you distance yourself from the cause?

Please don't harm yourself. We care about you and want to help if we can.
Keep talking to us ... we are here for you.

Blue, speaking from experience here. Self injury is only a temporary fix. it helps for the moment but unless you get to the source of what is wrong you'll do it again and again and again. sigh....... I know this cause i'm basically in the same boat you are in right now. feeling alot of anger.

I love your signature "signs" dear lady...you should remember to read them when you are in that pit of despair.

Ah Blue,

You know I'm always thinking of you even if I don't write. I'm crying for you my friend, just know I love you and all I can do is send you that and many many hugs......you know my email address if you need to talk

Just paying you back for all the (((HUGS))) you sent to me

When I was going thru a bad time



Rae

My very dear all,

Thank you so much for every single word you posted here. I have you very deep in my heart, and from there, I tell you I always think about you and pray for you, but most importantly, I thank God for having you, because otherwise I dont know where I would be nowadays...

Last night was a mess... instead of doing things to myself, I did things to material things... My room was a real disaster last night... but I arrange everything very early today

I dont remember what time I fell asleep... but I slept some hours before heading to the lab to work... a bit... and, I think cells cooperated....

I think I just exploded due to the accumulation of different situations I have been dealing with the last couple of months...

Today wasnt a good day... I was going on a vacaction this weekend, but, the concert I was attending was cancelled (for the second time in a month) and, well... lost money, time, and dreams...

So... oh well...

Dont know how to deal with this black cloud. I have to I know...

.

.
.