I wonder if I will ever reach my goal to weigh 150 lbs.

I wonder if I will continue to do the greatest hobby in the world. SPROUTING!!

I wonder if they will ever find out why my husband has neuropathy.

I wonder if I will ever buy one of those packages that the Bison people sell online. Steaks, burgers, roasts, etc. Only costs over $200. I wonder if I'll ever win the lottery so I can buy them.

I wonder if I'll always buy my Bison Meat from Waldbaums

I wonder if I'll ever be able to talk my husband into eating a piece of Bison.

I wonder if I will EVER see my son again. (didn't want to post that, but it had to be said).

I wonder wonder who baddooo doo doo.....
WHO WROTE THE BOOK OF LOVE???

Remember that song??
lol

I wonder if I can say "ditto!" :D

I wonder how I went from taking 30 or more pills a day down to about 6, and now it's creeping up to around to almost 20 again.

I wonder why the only solutions the doctors give me are pills, when they all know that I rarely am able to absorb even a small percentage of a pill, let along all of this!

I wonder why my stomach is upset tonight.. just the last half hour or so.

I wonder if my Einstein cat will sleep with me tonight. (Reference--this is my Facebook status: "has an incredibly intelligent kitty named ♥ Gavin. He will sit on top of my keyboard until I separate my legs so he can lay down. It's his favorite spot. He loves having body heat surround him--he curls up and snoozes for hours. It's his favorite spot, and he refuses to lay anywhere else. He even takes his paw and trie...s to pry my legs apart so he can lay there. He is SO smart. Not sure if that's a good thing. ;)" and my mom commented and said "sometimes too smart" and I said "I agree! So cute, though.. and he's like a little guard kitty.. he is always there when I feel sick or sad and he makes me feel all better.. so I give in and let him have his favorite spot, even when it makes my legs or hips hurt and isn't the most comfortable.. because I wouldn't give up the love and comfort he gives me for ANYTHING!"

I wonder if anyone else out there has a cat that plays fetch, plays soccer, and kisses on demand. (Not the same kitty that I just talked about, another one--we have 3)

I wonder, if BMW is reading this, if she could tell me approximately what time she usually gets online in the evening/at night. Said we'd talk tomorrow if we happen to catch each other.. and obviously since I am stuck in bed, I have several websites open at once. If I knew about what timeframe (a general one, not down to the exact minute), I would set my alarm on my phone to remind myself to check out the chat room to see if BMW or anyone else is there.

I wonder why the chat room is almost always empty.. and I wonder why I've never seem my new friends from this forum in there... we should all plan a time to get together and chat sometime. :)

I wonder if tonight will be better than last night. Two hours of nightmares and hallucinations... not fun, especially with everything else going on right now.

I wonder if I said something wrong or hurtful or offensive in the other post I commented on earlier... I never wanted to upset or hurt anyone, especially Blue.. was just trying to point some things out and show people that love is worth the struggles we face in this world.

I wonder, if I did hurt someone, if they would let me know so I can apologize directly to them.. I sure didn't mean to.

I wonder why I keep getting the hiccups.. and I wonder if anyone here knows the secret. There are lots of ways people try to get rid of them, and sometimes some of them work.. but here's the trick I learned from my mom, and never, not ONE single time have I ever hiccuped after doing this. When hiccuping, have someone place their hands tightly over your ears, as if they are trying to squish your head. It has to be tight--like, airtight! Maybe that's part of the secret. As a person hold's your ears (or closes them off.. my mom always asks "Want me to hold you ears?" when I hiccup) and then drink as much water as you can tolerate. Very similar to the "hold your breath and drink water" or "drink from a glass upside down" which have never worked for me.

I wonder what will happen with the insurance company. Our basement flooded a few weeks ago, and today my mom and I did searching online to see how much it would cost to replace every thing that was ruined from sitting in water. The insulation need to be replaced in some areas (it isn't a finished basement,and the insulation is exposed), and we didn't know how to estimate the cost of that. But, we were VERY surprised to add it up and find out that there was at least $2245 in damage.. and possibly more since we didn't add my CDs that were down there.. it all got wet, but I haven't had a chance to test it and see if they are ruined or if they can still play. So glad we had flood insurance, though there is a $500 deductible to pay first, so in the end we may just fix the insulation and call that good enough. The $2245 in damage stinks, but we don't have $500 for a deductible.

I wonder why it is so tough for people to understand that when I say I am bedridden, I literally do mean that aside from doctor appointments and showers/bathroom breaks (and sometimes a trip to the kitchen for water if I am home alone), I do not leave this bed. I'm not homebound, nor am I confined to a wheelchair (though I of course have to use one when I go to the doctor). It means literally I have spent 99% of the last 6 months here.. and according to the doctors, I will be like this the rest of my life. No, I'm not choosing to lay around and watch movies and be lazy. No, I'm not glad to not have to work--that would be a dream come true.. this is a never ending nightmare. No, it doesn't just mean I cannot work. I wonder why only a handful of people (out of over 100 people who know my situation) truly know what I say when I am bedridden. It's not just being stuck in one room.. but one bed. 54 x 75 inches. Who in their right mind would want to be imprisoned like that.. held captive in such a small space? And I wonder what makes people think that it is okay to say things like "I sure wish I had your life"... um... yeah. So instead of being perfectly healthy and happy.. holding down a full time job, having an income, and having a social life--you'd give all of that up to be stuck in 54 x 75 inches until you die (be it one month, twelve years, or 60 years from now). I wonder why people sometimes don't realize how stupid they sound. Ugh!

I wonder if anyone actually read my little rant, but am thankful that I was able to post it, even if it was just to get it off my chest!

I wonder if I can give :hug: to each of you, and a :grouphug:!

I wonder if my cruise clothes will fit.....:rolleyes:

I wonder if this time we will finally get to see Carmen...the last time we tried we were leaving for the theatre and looked at our tickets..they were for the matinee performance which had ended...:cool::p

I wonder whether to have ham or turkey for thanksgiving dinner...so happy that I get to host it this year but wonder where everyone will sleep..:o

I wonder that it tickled me to see Melody wonder....:hug:

I wonder how courageous smae is...not sure how I'd handle having so few choices...:( :hug:

I remember how immobilized by fear I was after Michael killed himself..wondering who will be next..another child? my husband? me?

I wonder about raging at God and shaking my fists at the heavens...

I remember our Pastor telling me that God could handle my fury...

I wonder why I can't remember his funeral...:(

I wonder how hard it is to sleep these days..wake up with a racing mind and a poundng heart...

I wonder if this is "mourning"...it hurts!!! I don't like it!!

I wonder if you can put up with me "talking about it"...and I have to wonder if going back there will help at all....:( :mad:

I wonder about Addy at the beach! And about that second interview.

I wonder how nice it was to see Manda post....:hug:

I wonder if Doody will find my message...

I wonder if Nan will.....

I wonder if I can leave hugs for the room...:grouphug:

I wonder that I am going to try to be here around 10ish east coast time. (night not day I gotta work0

I wonder that I recall very easily what it was like for me to be stuck in bed or if 'lucky' curled up on my bathroom floor that I managed to crawl to. wonder even that isnt the same tho.
I wonder that I had 3 cats but 1 just passed away a couple weeks ago. I also have 2 doggies and a gopher tortoise that lives in my back yard I call "Tank"

I wonder that went we go to Virginia we always eat buffalo/bison burgers and it is yummmmm!!!! Wonder that they have farms with buffalo roamin around there. and it sells in the food stores right next to the hamburger for about the same price. wonder that here you can get shark and gator meat :p

I wonder that I welcome the opportunity to "put up" with Alffemom talking about it :hug::hug::hug:

I wonder that not remembering is something that just happens ...even if we try as hard as we can to remember our brains just wont let us go there. I wonder why sub conscious works all funny like that .:hug:

I wonder if I can leave prayers hugs and blessings to the room readers and those lurking.

I wonder that Yess Melody finally wondered with us :D Thanks :hug:
wonder that I like getting a chance to know her better :D ha and I wonder that it is ALL OF US who wrote the book of LOVE !!!!
:grouphug:
PEACE
BMW

Oh One last wonder .. I wonder what sprouting is ? :o I wonder that when I hear that word I think of young boys trying to grow face hair and have a mustache.. I wonder if it is like one of those Cha-Cha-Cha Chia pets ????

I wonder at how vivid the memory of finding mom is today.... 3 months ago today we found her.... :(

I wonder how our visit with my BIL will go. He will be here Friday night and stay for 10 days :eek:

I wonder if my FIL will remember him. He is in the memory care unit now and his alzheimers has started to get worse. :(

I wonder if Alffe knows talking about "it" is a good thing. but then she already knows that. :rolleyes:

I wonder when i'll find the courage to talk about "it".

"IT" has been on my mind a lot lately. :(

I wonder if i can leave a :hug: for our room. I'm still on a sinking boat. all but one of my life preservers have been water logged. Holding on..... trying so hard to hold on...........

I wonder why, when people hear the word sprouting, they think of Chia Pets!!!

I wonder why they don't go to Melody's video on youtube,

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KjwlIRrKRy0

I wonder, if after viewing my instructional sprouting video, one will go to my other sprouting videos.

I wonder if any of my lovely Neurotalk friends will ever want to learn how to sprout, to put all these lovely healthy delicious foods which one can grow right in their kitchen on a shelf (which is what I do). No refrigeration needed if you eat them as they grow.

I wonder how many people, after reading this are going to go to Google and type in the words BENEFITS OF SPROUTING.

:hug::hug::hug:
lol

I wonder that BMW can now ignore her thread...http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/thread96172.html


I also wonder how traumatic it would be to find your mother, dead in her bed. :( Hard enough to lose your mother but to find her, unexpectedly ...well, words fail me dear Goofy. You know that many of us are praying for you. :grouphug:

I wonder if it is weird that I have never in my life had a sprout of any kind. :confused:

And I wonder if tomorrow, someone is going to say to me "wow, sprouting sounds like fun!!


lol