[Addy]

We are all so raw when we lose our moms... my heart truly goes out to you ... and I think you need reminders, as I do, that we only lost our mom's very recently.... and very suddenly - no warning whatsoever except that we new someday we'd lose our mom... we never let ourselves go to where we are living today.

I was "spared" finding my mom as you did. She and I had a "good-bye" dinner together the night before I was driving back to live here at the coast. She told me how she knew I was making the right decision to be near my sons and grand-daughter. We said I love you and hugged goodbye. I walked down the hall and she shut her door.

The next day I drove away... this is the day they said we lost her... in her sleep... all wrapped up and cozy, the way she like it... her apartment spotless. Like you, it was my sister who found my mom 2 days later.

So... I was not around for any of the clearing up ... I sometimes wish I could have shared that burden with my sister but the selfish me knows that I am much healthier for not having experienced it... ya, so I guess that's selfish ....

Anyway, I just wanted you to know that you have a huge bunch of friends here that will hold you up
I know how tough this is!

xo Addy