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10-09-2010, 10:08 PM
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I wonder why nobody else has started a thread yet.. as I read that the last one ended over 24 hours ago.
I wonder if anyone knows that although I find this a bit odd (starting sentences off with I wonder...), I have been checking and anxiously waiting for a new one to start. I wonder what it was in me that finally just decided to do it. I wonder how much more of this I can handle... I wonder where I could go if I left home right now.. considering I can't take care of myself, drive, cook, walk more than a few minutes, shower alone, etc. I wonder how to deal with the blatant lies that tear me apart.. I wonder who I should tell about the situation I am dealing with I wonder how to handle it without hurting someone in the process I wonder how much more I can take before I just lose it and explode.. I wonder, when it gets to that point, what it will look like... I wonder why at the times I need someone the most, nobody is around.
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10-09-2010, 10:44 PM
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I wonder that since I usually turn out the lights I too wait for someone to start a new thread.
I wonder if Sarah Mae is still here ..wonder if she wants to go to the chat? PEACE BMW |
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10-09-2010, 11:30 PM
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I wonder if Sarah Mae knows how healthy it is to wonder...
I wonder at how exhausted and happy I am right now... I wonder that these are the only wonders I am feeling at the moment...  Addy
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10-10-2010, 05:11 AM
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I wonder if Sara Mae knows how happy I was to see her start a wonder thread...thank you!
 I wonder if I can apoligize for being so scarce lately...am guilty of my own rule....NOT talking about it...am alternately between soul searching and keeping so busy I'm worn out...  I wonder how I/we can help you Sara Mae...we really do care.  I wonder about Addy and the second interview...and wonder about recent pictures of the grandaughter....*grin More please.  I wonder about how long it takes broken ribs to heal...especially old broken ribs.... I wonder if Mr.Alffe should have to eat Cassie's breakfast this morning...it's Sunday morning and they both get scrabbled eggs & bacon, he forgot and fed her dogfood so it seems only fair that they trade.... I wonder how much fun it was to be on the N.D. campus yesterday for the pregame entertainment...They won, beat Pitt. Yay! I wonder how Lonely1 is.....and Abbie....and MegVeg...and so many others...
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10-10-2010, 08:31 AM
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wonder if I can leave a room full of hugs and prayers .
AlffemomSarahmaewonder that being 2 people down this week how work is going to be . Wonder that sometimes I feel like a work pony and sometimes wonder that by end of the day ..sometimes I feel like if I never have human contactwith anyone for a year I feel that would be perfect. wonder if anyone else gets like that?  PEACE BMW |
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10-10-2010, 09:34 AM
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I wonder if MelodyL would wonder with us on the wonders ??
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10-10-2010, 02:57 PM
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I wonder why I am surprised that anyone responded to my post and cared... after all of the love and support I have seen here, should it really surprise me?
I wonder when I will find the time to get back here and truly reply--life has gone crazy in the last 24 hours--but I do want to let everyone know that I am okay... in case anyone WONDERed... hehe  I wonder when the day will come that I can get out of this bed and go help people and make a difference in the world... and I also wonder if my life will settle down enough so that even if I can't go out into the world and help people, that I will be able to make a difference or help anyone here on this forum. We'll see... I will be back later, as I said--and will respond/explain.
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. ♥ "Hope is more than a word; it's a state of being. It's a firm belief God will come through. Life brings rain... hope turns every drop into the power to bloom like never before." -Holley Gerth ♥ My name is Sarah and I am 25 years old. I have a lot of chronic health problems. Peripheral neuropathy and POTS (postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome) keep me bedridden the majority of the time. I also struggle with degenerative disc disease, disc desiccation, spondylolisthesis, arthritis, polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS) with insulin resistance, allergies, sound sensitivities, and other health problems. |
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10-10-2010, 05:11 PM
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I wonder if Sara Mae knows that she already does make a difference in this world!! Just like our BMW does and really, this entire family who offers love and support when it's most needed....
I wonder if my grilled cheese sandwiches will even come close to the great ones Barbo & I had last week....their bread, four different kinds of cheese, including blue, pesto, thinly sliced tomato....they are in the skillet... I wonder how our Goofy is...keeping you in my prayers dear friend... along with our David...who I miss but understand about "time outs". I wonder if I can leave a hug for waves who treats me with such kindness and uses a word I adore....splendid!! I wonder if Bizi's husband got his birthday card....   I wonder that I think it's too hot to get into the hot tub!! I also wonder if Melody will wonder..... 
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10-11-2010, 05:51 PM
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I wonder if BMW knows how sad I was when I came onto NT and saw that I missed the invitation to join her in the chat. I wonder if BMW would be up for chatting again soon, even if it isn't caused because one of us is melting down at that moment! I wonder if BMW knows how much her presence has meant to me... and that the words and hugs and support are great, but that constant, strong sense of just "being there" has meant so much to me--from day 1 on this board until always.
I wonder if everyone read this sentence can go back and reread what I wrote up there ^ and replace "BMW" with their individual username. BMW comes to mind because she is the first person I talked to/connected with from this board, but that any person reading this has most likely touched my life in the same way--through support, whether verbal, quiet, or both.. and through the love and time that goes into replies... and even from posts that are days old or months old that I read long before I ever made my presence known on this board. All of the posts and replies have done wonders for my heart. I wonder if anyone here has struggled as an adult with someone very close to you is fighting an addiction. I wonder if there is anyone who has been in that situation who has survived through it, and would be willing to lend an ear or a shoulder to cry on... I wonder, though, if it really matters if someone has been in that situation.. or if -anyone- could offer love and support, even if they haven't been through what I am going through. I wonder if I should go through with writing a separate thread on this board about some thing going on in my life... or if I should find another board to put it on. I wonder how people decide--is this board only if people are thinking of suicide or have lost someone to suicide? Or can people post about struggles if they are not in either of those categories? I wonder if there is a place that would be better... I wonder if I should have started out this thread by telling you all about my username change! haha.. Sorry! This is Sarah Mae... I sent messages to all my friends explaining the change.. but keep posting and forgetting to tell people. I changed my username not to protect myself (I'm an open book and don't care if anyone finds what I have said about myself, but do worry about people searching my name and finding things about the people around me.. I want to protect them.) It isn't much of a change, and anyone who knew me before can see that it's hardly a change at all--but smae could mean any number of things--so it just feels a bit safer. I wonder why I am so talkative today. I have set out to say one or two sentences, yet everything I have written today (whether on here, MSN, Facebook, my blog, etc.) has been nearly a novel!  I wonder when someone is going to tell me to shut up!  I wonder if you all know how much I love and appreciate each of you, for all of the different things you bring to NT.
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. ♥ "Hope is more than a word; it's a state of being. It's a firm belief God will come through. Life brings rain... hope turns every drop into the power to bloom like never before." -Holley Gerth ♥ My name is Sarah and I am 25 years old. I have a lot of chronic health problems. Peripheral neuropathy and POTS (postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome) keep me bedridden the majority of the time. I also struggle with degenerative disc disease, disc desiccation, spondylolisthesis, arthritis, polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS) with insulin resistance, allergies, sound sensitivities, and other health problems. |
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10-11-2010, 08:16 PM
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Wonder how nice it was to see smae in the chats
 wonder that i got my shots and did well at check up today. wonder that it is not looking good for my co worker ..back in hosp the cancer they took out ...wonder that it has grown back again ... wonder that I went to air show yesterday and it was a blast.. thought of my bro who has passed. wonder he was in air force so I went to lots of air shows when I was younger Ray ...wonder on hug for EVERYONE with Prayers and positive wishes and blessings on top. Wonder if I can say Thanks to smae for being my pal and hanging out in the chat with me before ? PEACE BMW...Tina Humm Wonder if melody will wonder with us??? |
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