:D Yes and I know where you live! LOLOL!

I wonder how nice it was to "see" poo wonder...:hug:

I wonder if Mark ever showed up......:confused:

I wonder if smae feels any relief today...

I wonder how the changing weather affects all of our pains...:grouphug:

I also wonder if I could send Smae a gentle hug :hug:

I wonder that this morning I am making my first movie using my Flip. I recorded everything I did (going to my local breakfast cafe). Everyone seemed to enjoy being recorded. And now I'm learning how to edit, how to string videos together, etc. I wonder why I never learned to do this before, but I'm grateful that my brain is still functioning at my age, so I can learn new things.

So I hope everyone has a peaceful day.

Oh, about the Sprout tv, you'll all enjoy this.

I was on the computer some time ago, checking out Directv (I have this), and I noticed as I was scrolling through the channel information, I happened upon a SPROUT TV channel.

Well, I got so excited. I called Alan over to the computer and announced "Alan, Alan, they have a channel just for sprouting"

Alan says "I guarantee you they do NOT have a sprouting channel". I said "Oh yeah, look at this" And all we saw was the word SPROUT.

He said "Well, I wonder"

So I looked up the information and my face fell. It's a kiddie channel.

Nothing about sprouts.

But I did find Planet Green.

lol
melody

I wonder if I should even tell Melody that I was cracking up reading her story as I saw the outcome from the start--and I didn't know there was a kid's channel called Sprout.

I wonder if Melody could start her OWN channel and fill it with sprouts--the real kinds, I mean... Like youtube videos 24/7!

I wonder if I can give everyone huge (but gentle in case others are hurting as well) hugs, especially those who have thought and wondered about me. I am still hurting badly and only getting 2-4 hours of sleep a night.. so I am really struggling right now.

I wonder if things will get better before my SCS trial next week.. I feel like I'm falling apart and something like that does not seem like a good idea when I feel this 'unstable'... That probably sounds worse than I mean it to... I just am exhausted and worn out and am struggling just to deal with this pain.. so to deal with all of that worries me a bit.

I wonder when I am ever going to find the time and energy to reply to all of the messages I have on NT as well as all the Facebook messages and e-mails... I don't want anyone to think I don't care, but man.. I can hardly stand 5 minutes at the computer right now.

I wonder how my mom's first session of group therapy is going... 3 nights a week (Mon-Wed) for 3 hours...

I wonder how I will ever find the treatment I need when the only doctor who is specialized enough in all of the states surrounding SD.. is the one place I refuse to go to be treated. Ugh. I wonder how many days I will spend with headaches from hours of searching and no positive results.

I wonder if Melody knows that i do NOT know where she lives but i can make a good guess because yes you DO have an accent LOLOL ;)

And I wonder if the following story (which happened today) will crack all of you up. For the uninformed let me say that I used to weigh over 300 lbs. Many moons ago. I started to take care of myself perhaps about 10 years ago, but not like I have done for the past 2 years. I literally grow 90% of what I eat. So, obviously I look completely different.

Today was my annual eye exam at my opthomologist. Been seeing him since I was in my mid 50's I'll be 63 in a few weeks. About 3 years ago, I saw lightening flashes in front of my eyes so I went to see him and he did the dilating of the eyes and took pictures of the back of my eyes and said "Aha, you have tiny hemorrhages, that's why you see those lightening flashes. That was all he had to tell me. I became obsessed with controlling my blood sugar, etc. etc. etc. So, after that, he would tell me 'good job, good job, no bleeding, etc.

Last year when he did the pictures, etc, he asked me "how long are you a diabetic?" and I said "22 years" and he said "I would never know it, your eyes are fine, keep up the good work".

That was last year.

So Melody walks into his office today and here is word for word the opening dialogue of what happened.

He walks in, smiled, I say "Hey there, how are you doing?" He takes one look at me and says "Are you still a diabetic"?. (Now I never expected that to be his opening line, so I just looked at him". He again said 'So, are you still a diabetic"?

I then said "What?? why wouldn't I still be a diabetic?"

He then goes "What operation did you have?" I looked at him and tried to think of my last operation and I said 'Well, I had gallbladder surgery over 10 years ago" and he said "no, what operation did you have?"

I'm looking at him and I have no idea what he's talking about. I'm thinking "Well, like I just said, I had the gallbladder surgery and I had a caesarian operation 30 years ago"

Again, he said "NO, WHAT KIND OF GASTRIC OPERATION DID YOU HAVE?"

I looked at him STILL NOT GETTING IT, and I said "What on earth are you talking about?"

He says to me "To lose the weight, what operation did you have?"

I looked at him and said "You think I had an operation?"

He says: "Didn't you have gastric bypass?"

I said "Why on earth would I have Gastric Bypass?" and he said:

"Because you're half the size". I then burst out laughing and I said:

"Really??" and he says Stand Up, and I'm turning this way and that and I'm going 'I really am half the size"??

And he goes "You can't tell me that you did this by diet alone"

And I said "Not only did I do this by diet alone, I grow my own food"

He goes: "You grow what??" I said "I sprout"

He said; "what the h is a sprout?"

I never laughed so hard in all my life.

I like this guy, he's a specialist in diabetic retinopathy and I was looking at the photos of my eye, up on the screen and he says "you are perfectly fine, and whatever you are doing, keep doing it, I'll see you next year"

To say I waltzed out of there is putting in mildly.

So I shall continue to sprout.

Sproutingly yours,

Melody lol

i wonder if i can thank Melody too for her sprout story today. At first i was confused and wondering what the hub-bub was over these sprouts, especially since i definitely don't like to eat bean sprouts.

i wonder if i'll ever sprout - did i use that correctly?

i wonder if i can say im in a bad mood tonight.

i wonder if anyone else notices mood changes in themselves.

i wonder if i can also say... i finally made an appt to see someone next week. we played phone tag last week and i called each other 10 times before we finally could pick up and speak to one another.

i wonder if i can also say that i am looking forward to it since i had a rough family-induced weekend filled with lots of family gatherings, always bringing up dysfunctional thoughts and feelings.

i wonder if anyone else has dysfunctional families??

i wonder about Michael's fiancee tooo --- never knew he had one.

i wonder if playing with puppies will always make me happy, even if they arent mine.

i wonder where i'll live next year.

I wonder if you know that there are MANY kinds of sprouts other than bean sprouts (which I happen to love because I grow them too).

I wonder who doesn't have a dysfunctional family. I have NEVER met anyone who didn't have family problems. In this crazy world we now live in I don't think function exists. We have to make the best with what we have.

I had a very very wise friend over 35 years ago. Her name was Bernice. We used to ride the bus to work every single morning. She was older than all of us. We were in our early 20's or so and she was 42.

I will never forget her words. She came from (her words) a very dysfunctional family. I remember asking her "what do you do when you are with your family?' She said "I don't associate with them, they are toxic for my health"

Now imagine being a 20 something and an older woman tells you this and you do not know what the heck she is talking about.

I remember saying 'What do you mean you don't have anything to do with your family, they are your family, of course you have to see them"

She replied: "WHY?" where is it written that we have to associate with people who are bad for us, who hurt us, who abuse us"?

I remember those words and I've applied them.

Whenever someone tells me "My mother abuses me, my son punches me, etc. etc. I always say "Well, you can always DO A BERNICE.

That's what I call it.

Doing a Bernice.

So when it's an option and you are really having a hard time hanging with toxic people, then for your own sanity.

Do a Bernice!!!

Not easy, I know, but in the long run, you just might save your mind.

Take care

Melody

i wonder that it is time to turn the lights out on this sprouting wonder... we have made page 3
BMW needs to sprout some snacks first tho ....
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http://i294.photobucket.com/albums/m...esecakepie.jpg

http://i294.photobucket.com/albums/m.../chocolate.jpg


so the wonder police girl is here to shut the lights out
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would the next wonderful person to come PLEASE begin a new wonder thread #234. there is not a new wonder thread yet someone needs to start one... anyone can it is easy and fun.
Boom boom out go the lights.
Prayers Healing hugs to the ones on the side lines the posters and the readers and this bright beautiful room we have here.
PEACE
BMW

To BMW
 

You're too much!!!