i wonder if i should pass more info along about the book: http://search.barnesandnoble.com/Hea.../9780399535048

i wonder if i should have said the author: Kate Atwood - and that its really for someone who has lost a loved one, especially someone with children who has lost a parent... although I find it applies very much for me too(an adult that had lost a parent as a child).

i wonder about how eager i am to meet Kate Atwood some day... my aunt met her and had her inscribe and sign the inside cover for me.

I wonder about our "healing" journeys, for all of us.

I wonder too why I am NOT getting the things done, I intended to do, which is why I stayed home from work today.

I wonder if I will soon enough.

I wonder if you all know I finally fell asleep, I usually have trouble sleeping between 5 to 7 am when my cats are up wandering.

I wonder about cats too - :) and their personalities. I have 2 that are opposites, one that thinks he is a dog, and the other that is quite shy and only likes to play with me.

I wonder about dogs and how very much I still miss my childhood/lifelong dog Lucy after 17 years together.

I wonder about grief and how hard it is to work on - especially important in the book. How communication is the gigantic key ingredient to healing. I never really had anyone in my family to communicate with it about, still dont.

I wonder why death is such a mysterious taboo thing to us all and because of this, we dont like to talk about it.

i wonder why my cat loves to scratch the mirror and the cabinet doors (like he is doing right now). :eek:

I wonder too if you all will cross your fingers and think of me, as I just sent off an email to the interviewer asking for an update on the job.

I wonder if Alffe knows I've thought of substitute teaching as a back up plan.... almost interviewed for 2 teaching positions last month too but am not certified and they wanted all that up front first. Education is really bad in our state right now (perhaps all over too) and our budget cuts have been really bad, most teaching jobs are difficult to get here. I am not sure if any would need a substitute, which usually isnt a full-time position.

But i wonder if she knows how much I miss working in a school after working there for 3 years.

I wonder too if you all could believe i prefer working with teens though :eek:

i wonder what you are all up to today on a very glum and rainy Thursday

I wonder if I should go to Yoga tonight - maybe if I get my stuff done

I wonder if I can say to Wish: no WONDER you're not sleeping... look at all the things on your mind dear one! Exhausting and stressing and I might hazard a guess to say you're battling the depression demon right now... am I right?

I wonder at the difference in our lives... I thought for sure that I was getting a particular job recently... but I wasn't stressed because I didn't need the job.

I wonder how easy it is to say, well, things happen for a reason....

Wish :hug:

I wonder how excited I am to have Grand-Addy for a sleepover tomorrow!

:sing: Addy

I wonder if Addy knows I am already stalling on going to bed, once again. And supposedly I have to wake up early tomorrow at 4am! :eek: Which means 3 hours of sleep tonight before work?? I wonder if any of you live off of coffee too.

I wonder if it'll be okay if I had extra sleep today since I didn't go to work because I tried to stay home and get things done but ended up not doing as much as I'd hoped.

I wonder when and if I'll ever get these school applications sent out. I wonder why I thought this would be easier than it is.

I wonder still even more so about my client this week that told me some critical things and why I can't just "shake" it away.

I wonder if Addy knows that this is my roughest time of year, and right now I am sandwiched in between two anniversaries - the death and birth of my mom... just a week or so more to go and then I can actually begin to enjoy the holidays. Especially if I have my to-do list completed by then too.

I wonder if you all have learned already that I like to keep extremely busy as my coping style.... so tomorrow night I have an event to attend in the evening, then saturday we are going to the university's football game, and then sunday I am going to a friend's brunch at her home. Always one thing after the next, that is why I keep wondering when I am going to stop and smell the roses. *sigh Life is not a race... why can't I remember that?

I wonder what you are all up to and your life journeys and your struggles, hurdles, and what you all have overcome. I wonder how Goofy's appt went today. :hug:

I wonder where all my old SOS family has gone and how their lives are treating them now: scrabble, lara, reyn, E, fury, mere .... i hope its okay that you all have become my new family now. :)

And i wonder about alffe and what she said about me growing up too fast physically and perhaps I am still not completely grown-up but "stuck" in ways... and I wonder how stuck I do feel.

I wonder if Gingerbread Lattes make you all feel like its the holidays officially now too.

To Wish
 

I too seem to be stuck in a place I can't escape. My daughter died 8-21-03 and I grieve her more every day. Shouldn't it go the other way? The further one gets from the anniversary date the better they are. Not true. My grief just seems to deepen. I feel close to her but with such sadness I can't describe. That's what's happening with me.

I wonder if I can tell Barbo that yesterday, I came across an entire folder of things her daughter had sent us...some thank you's to both Mr.Alffe and me, some honest, angry poetry, the unicorn stationery she made me...the wonderful original post cards of you, grandparents, Fen....

I wonder if I can say that I treasure them because she was such a treasure...:hug:

I wonder if I can admit to never having a latte, gingerbread of other kind..

I wonder if wish has ever had Hiram Walker Pumpkin Spice Liqueur w/half cream................:wink:

I wonder that Mr.Alffe called me earlier this morning on the toll road in a snow squall........:rolleyes:

I wonder at the big dead bird I now have in my freezer...;)

Ah...I wonder that the world is right again. :wink:

I wonder when life is going to stop throwing me curve balls...... sigh

I wonder if I can give Goofy a hug......:hug: