I am so so tired of fighting the dark dragging depression, the physical and mental pain. I seems no matter what I do, it is not enough. I am punished for caring for my dear niece by both my mother-in-law and the childs father. No one wants to foot the bill for her daycare and support, but he darn sure wants to have her when it is time for the heathy checkup so he can continue to recieve checks for food and her SSI from her mothers death. My MIL is older and is unable to care for a 3 yearold, but insists she should continue to do it. Then she complains about the amount of work it takes and the $$. If they would just leave us alone....... We have a system that has worked for the last 3 months but I fear that she will soon be taken from us yet again. I am not sure if she is taken again that I will be able to keep what little sanity I have left....
Sorry to moan and groan but I had to vent

Vent all you want poo, that's why we're here. It's funny how some people think they have all the answers but contribute so little....how frustrating for you..I hope it doesn't end the way you fear it might.

It is NO fun being taken for granted, this I do know.
I was put in a similar situation several years ago....and had I not stepped up to the plate and taken my 3 nieces in, they would have been turned over to foster care and probably would have been split up.

Their mother was in jail, she was a crack head and wreaked unbelievable havok on our family. I took her girls in because I genuinely cared for them and did the best I could to keep them together, gave them birthday parties and bent over backward just to try and give those poor girls some semblence of normalcy and then one day out of the clear blue sky, their uncle (the brother of the crackhead) from another state pulls up in the driveway and took the 3 girls away.
No 'thank you' ..... nothing.
.....and this all took place in the wake of grief from losing my brother to a car wreck.
I don't know how I kept my sanity when I look back on all that.
Now that it has been several years (8) ..... i can sit back and know that I did a good thing. There was a lot of sacrifice involved, but I know in my heart that I did a good thing and I can carry that with me. I keep it tucked away in a corner of my heart.

Please don't let that depression cloud get the best of you Pooh....
Do whatever it takes to stay above that cloud.
You do so much for so many people. There will be reward in all that you do....(probably not from inlaws ), but there WILL be reward.
Tuck it safely away in your heart and keep it there ok.


Rae

Rae, these forums are blessed by your comforting words...I always "read" when you post, where ever you post. Thank you for being here and there.

Dear Pooh, I am sorry that you are experiencing depression, seemingly caused by family troubles. I do have trouble as you do with my family. I am thinking of you, and hoping there is some peace that can come into your life. I often think of the holidays as particularly stressful with a family that doesn't get along. Do something nice for yourself, and try to do to others as you would would want to be treated, even if they don't get it. I feel better about myself when I can be kind even when in pain. take care ginnie

Dear Pooh... forgive me if I've asked or suggested this b4... but I hope that you are able to have good medical coverage for your depression. Whenever life throws me a curve ball and I feel the cloud cover my mind I get myself to the doctor...

It will help you let go of any "small stuff" like housework (hey, can you get some help with the cleaning and washing?... that would help a ton...)

It makes me so sad that selfish people abuse the system and rip apart the hearts of little people..

I respect you more than I could possibly convey dear Pooh

bumping this up because I want to hear how you're doing Pooh

Well it just continues on and on. Had to be at work @ 4:30 this am so made a decision to stay in town last night, did not have my meds so missed a couple of doses of meds, now have nausea from that, but was not going to ask 4 help from family tomorrow will be 3 of 6 in a row monday i am scheduled 4 a nerve block then more shifts