I wonder how long it's been since I said anything here... time doesn't have any meaning for me.

I wonder that I don't have anything to talk about; you've heard it all before.

I wonder sometimes if I'll forget how to speak because of how little oppertunity I have to. And on those rare ocasions where I might speak the words come hard, awkward, and slurred.

I wonder if a normal person would go to a doctor if that happened to them.

I wonder how long I'll have the strength to get out of bed knowing that my life is a dead end.

I wonder if God really does have a purpose for me; but even if He does, I still don't care to live long enough to find out what it is. I can't help but think it will be something depressing like 'to make everyone else's life look better by comparrison.'

Lonely1
 

We've missed you!

I've been wondering about you lots lonely1 and would like to give you a :hug: ... I'm sorry life is just so difficult for you... :rain:

I've been wondering lots about whether or not I'll make it over this next mountain...

I've been wondering if I'm simply riding a wave of mania... and am watching/monitoring myself closely - writing quite a bit about "it"... and I talked to one of my best friends to tell her I was afraid to get too excited about things because I'm afraid she would feel I was again on that roller coaster of highness... and said, oh, no... she can tell I'm doing so much better..

so I cautiously wonder if my new life's direction is, indeed, a healthier choice...

and I wonder at how much this goes against my learned behaviour....

and I wonder if our Marshallow friend will be back to turn this thread off... or just who will step up to the plate to soon start the next one...
xoxo :sing: Addy

I want to add a few wonders before this turns into #248...

I wonder why I have stayed away knowing about all the love and support I would receive from all the fellow SOS family!!

I wonder if on another thread I can talk about what's going with me...it does hurt some what to sit so it may take time...

I always wonder about hugs!!!!!

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