[MandiMae]

Hi everyone!

A friend of mine told me about this site and I thought I would check it out! I haven't thought about suicide for many years now....I had a rough time in high school but pulled myself through. I never actually attempted to leave but I spent MANY hours thinking about it! I am much more comfortable and happy with myself now and I am thankful for that!

I am hear because I have lost three very important people in my life to suicide and it is VERY hard! I lost my grandpa when I was young and didn't find out until I was older that he had taken his life! I lost my brother-in-law 2 and a half years ago and just last year I lost my little brother! It hurts SOOO much!

I noticed a couple of posts where people talked about how suicide is seen as a cowardly way out and I would like to say that it is NOT a coward thing to do! If you are at a point in your life where you feel the ONLY way out is to leave this earth on your own decision you are NOT a coward! I know how lost I was when I was in high school and I didn't even get to the point of acting on my thoughts, so I can somewhat imagine how a person must feel to act on it! There are no thoughts other than the only way out!

I don't know if this forum is a place for me but I thought I would check it out!