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waves 09-22-2011 05:40 PM

Awww
 
David that was poetic... as usual. thank you (((hugs)))

(((Addy))) it's ok and i concur .... (((wren))) too. no shortage of hugs. ;)

:grouphug:

waves

DMACK 09-22-2011 06:28 PM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dIj-6fr2SlI

D:Ream
Things Can Only Get Better Lyrics

Send “Things Can Only Get Better” Ringtone to Your Cell

You can walk my path
You can wear my shoes
Let her talk like me
And be an angel too

But maybe
You ain't never gonna feel this way
You ain't never gonna know me
But I know you...
Teach you now that

Things can only get better
Can only get, can only get
They get on from here
You know, I know that
Things can only get better

I sometimes lose myself in me
I lose track of time
And I can't see the world's formed trees
You set them alight, burning the bridges as you go
I'm too weak to fight you
I got my personal health to deal with
And you say

Walk my path
Wear my shoes
Talk like me
I'll be an angel and

(CHORUS:)
Things can only get better
Can only get better
Now I've found you
(That means me)
(Will you teach me now)
Things can only get better
Can only get better
Now I've found you

And you and you...
You... show me prejudice and greed
You show me how
I must learn to deal with this disease
I look at things now
In a different light than I did before
I found the cause
And I think that you could be my cure
And you say

Walk your path
Wear your shoes
Talk like that
I'll be an angel too

(chorus)

Things can only get, can only get
Things can only get, can only get
Things can only get, can only get
Things can only get, can only get

(chorus)


DAVID:hug::hug::hug::grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: :hug:

Lara 09-23-2011 02:53 AM

~waves~ across the oceans to waves.

Hope you feel stronger really fast. Feeling like an empty shell washed up on a beach certainly is a scary way to feel. I've felt it at times. I tend to force myself to do a lot of things knowing that they'll help during times that are very difficult. When I was really young, I didn't have the knowledge or insight to know that I have to do it or indeed exactly what helped. Feel better. :hug:

Wren 09-23-2011 06:01 AM

Sending Waves hugs and positive thoughts - and love

waves 09-23-2011 07:35 AM

Lara, thank so much for the aussie waves. i so miss the ocean!!! :o

a week or so ago, i had more energy, and was trying to do things. now it is as though i have gone limp. perhaps now i've had this dental accident it is a blessing in disguise forcing me to go and move etc. but it is so driven by fear i am even more a wreck. we shall see. or should i say we shell sea.

when i was younger, ironically, i had ways of letting things out... i was closer to me. the shell was not empty. it was more about pain. i only had one depression like this later on, in which devoid of artistic anything... it was even worse than this and lasted months. i won't go there. it won't do any of us any good right now.

(((David))) as always the inspiring one... thank you. i am not so sure that things can only get better though.... just being honest my friend. i am sorry. i feel so guilty saying that.

(((Wren))) thank you for the good wishes and backatcha!

ok now i REALLY have to run to the hygenist. i got mixed up and left for the bus ... a half hour early... came back up. figured i'd check this thread... thanks so much again to everyone here. my brain is acting like it's not plugged in right.

:grouphug:

~ waves ~ from across the ocean

Alffe 09-23-2011 07:38 AM

Good luck at the dentist waves....no fun at all. :( :hug:

waves 09-23-2011 07:45 AM

thanks Alffe.

i'm not sure if this is what they call an "emergency" but i was not prepared to tell them that so i just asked for a cleaning. but when she sees the chunk of tooth missing i think she will call in the "big guy" ... so i hope to get a sort of a verdict of tye type:
simple rebuild
OR
crown
OR
crown+root canal
OR
yank tooth and bridge (yank maybe, bridge, NO WAY JOSE)

if he is too busy i might need a "dedicated" appointment. i hope not coz then he might want to dig in right away EEK. confrontation.

i want time to digest and consider 2 opinions before i let them do whatever they will... eeeks.

ok. now it's REALLY go catch bus time...

~ waves ~

Alffe 09-23-2011 08:28 AM

Sending positive thoughts to you on the bus...keep us posted. :grouphug:

Addy 09-23-2011 01:46 PM

I'm blessed to live within walking distance of the ocean but haven't walked the beach for a year...

What has kept me from walking that beach?!!!!

I have gumboots, an umbrella, suncreen, ability to check tide levels on the internet, sunhat....

What's missing ... ? oh yes - my will ... I can't seem to find the will ...!

I know just talking about this will get me there again... because I love to collect empty shells....

My beach: http://www.borderlineups.com/cam.php?CamID=17

Waves, I'm so glad you started this thread...

Alffe, thanks for bumping up threads of reminders... each time I read an "old" thread, I realize that a "new" me is reading it!

Ginnie, I'm always so appreciative to have you pull up a chair with us...

David! :hug: Lara! :hug: and look, there's wren!! :hug: Jo*mar, thanks for all you do here at NT! :hug:

:grouphug:

waves 09-23-2011 05:52 PM

Dear Addy,
Quote:

Originally Posted by Addy (Post 808481)
I'm blessed to live within walking distance of the ocean but haven't walked the beach for a year...

What has kept me from walking that beach?!!!!

I have gumboots, an umbrella, suncreen, ability to check tide levels on the internet, sunhat....

What's missing ... ? oh yes - my will ... I can't seem to find the will ...!
I know just talking about this will get me there again... because I love to collect empty shells....

My beach: http://www.borderlineups.com/cam.php?CamID=17

i wonder if we were neighbors, if my thirst for going to the sea would be enough to drag you to the beach with me. when you do find that will, bring my empty shell along in your heart to the seaside.

i know what you mean about will. i don't have the will to do most anything these days. whatever i do i sort of shove myself through. usually fear or guilt are involved. they are not great motivators. i mean, they work, but it is horrid living only in function of these punitive-type motivators. like offering/agreeing to cook even. usually something i might enjoy. now it's only about saving work for someone else, pulling a fraction of my unemployed weight. this chasing down tooth repair is for abject fear of losing teeth (and ending up living a long, listless life where i can't even comfort-eat. :o)

oh, the tooth. dentist looked at it. no pull. no root canal unless xray (separate appointment) reveals damage but surface of break reveals no caries. hygenist said inlay/rebuild. then dentist burst my bubble and said crown and his explaination of this case made sense. monday i have to go back for a temporary filling to help me "push out" having the crown work done - very expensive and i said i was hard up. then i will get a second eval from my parents' dentist. i hope he can see me next week.

and there went today. well at least i have something new to obsess about for a while... :Noooo::eek::Noooo::o

:o :grouphug: :o

waves


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