Lonely, I'm sorry about your mother.

I am so sorry.

Not an exclusive club I assure you. Lost my mother at age 4. I lost my father at age 16. I never knew my father really... only from family talk. I don't know your mother, but I'm sure she tried very hard. Addiction is a shocking thing and for children it must make their lives very confusing indeed. Know you're not alone.

to thelonely1

hi
hope u feel better today
alffe hit the nail on the head
maybe 1 day you may try the suggestion
i had 2 give my oliver (silky terrier) 2 my adult child no pets allowed where i am now
went 2 visit him this weekend, couldn't get enough of him
but the unconditional love is what it,s all about
they are right up in your face ready 2 lick those sad tear you may cry away
maybe, just maybe unconditional love could be a starting point
as alffe said cats are easier in the sense they pretty much take care of themselves
a little food, fresh water and u can make it a litter box
give yourself some love
lot of hugs sending your way

Thank you all for the support and prayers.

Her kidneys have failed, and her liver is getting worse, and the doctors are pulling her ventilator tube. She's breathing on her own but they say she'll die in a couple days or less.

So I'll be in a place with no internet for a few days... i didn't want anyone to think I wasn't reading their posts.

Remembering you in my prayers.....

I've been thinking about you today ((((lonely1)))) ....

(((Lonely1))))

I'm thinking of you too. thank you for letting us know you were going to be internet-less for a bit.

more s

~ waves ~

#1, so sorry about your mom. i hope if she pulls through she finds the motivation to quit the drink.

you are right, an animal is a huge commitment and the expense is not small. maybe you could start small with a goldfish or a cactus plant. once i kept snails in a goldfish bowl. they were impossible to kill. i named them diligent because they were so good at procreation.

i am also sorry people are mean. i wish sometimes they could see themselves. i have experienced it and it is no fun at all. i hope you encounter some who are not mean. shunning is about as mean as it gets.

White candle burning. Thinking about you and your mother, lonely1.

you wrote: My mother's choice may not be a conventional form of suicide, but there is no doubt about her intentions.

<sigh>

Actually, I've often wanted to discuss what you've written in that one sentence here, but have never been able to find the right time. Sadly, I do understand what you mean although our circumstances might be very different and so many years apart.

It's not the right time now, but hopefully one day in the future we can talk about this once again. love to you...

Continued prayer Lonely1.