Please call a friend to come spend some time with you. Don't spend any more time alone if you are all alone there.

Please call a counsellor or your family doctor.

Urgently.

http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/thread4982.html

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I'm at a friends now but its so fake me sitting here like nothing is wrong.

I'm glad you are with someone.

justtired, if they're a true friend, you don't need to fake it. They must be able to pick up on your feelings. Just tell them you're not OK. Men find it very difficult to open up about their feelings esp. these types of feelings. (not being sexist, it's just the way it is). If you're with a mate/male friend then it certainly would be difficult, but you need to tell someone you trust how bad things are going.

I've told babys mom. She doesn't care. Don't feel like I can tell anyone else. I just want this to end already. I want to be at peace.

30 years ago when I was coming home from Mayo clinic with a bad diaganosis, I stopped at a rest area. I was unable to stop my tears, My eyes were red, it had been -27, I was sick. There was a book stand and I picked up the book "Ann Macathrey The White Dragon" I had never read for pleasure before, really had no interest except my own misery and depression. well I read the book all the way home, and my tears dried up, my nose stopped running, and I had forgotten all my sorrow. I was transported to the land of Pern, which is far better than the one I was currently living in, and to top it off I was riding a white dragon. Since that time I have escaped many times through reading. It gets you away from your heartache even if it is temporary. I had not been interested in reading before that time, I never sat down long enough to do it, and in college it was forced reading.
Right now, I have alot of medical issues too, emotional problems, and when I am finished this a.m. I am going back to bed with my current read. "The Night Circus" I will be lost in it for hours, and my pain will be reduced for that space of time. It is just an idea, a way for your to remove your mind from the pain. I hope you give this try, and see if it will work for you. I wish you all the best. ginnie

How are you doing there today, justtired?

ginnie, thanks for that reminder. When I'm feeling very low, I tend to get out in the garden. Force myself at tiimes. It does help.

I get out in the garden too! This afternoon when it is nice, I will plop down on my butt, and groom a small areaca palm. It will be almost 80 and I would be a fool just to sit inside and sulk. I can also bring my book outside, just to have the blessed sun. I hope your day goes OK too lara, beating off the depression can take alot of work! ginnie

Doing better today but not by much. Just laying in bed.

Get out of bed if you can. Take some deep breaths and come back here to talk. Engage your mind and your heart. Shutting down will only bring you down further. I am depressed today too. In fact not happy at all. I am waiting on pins and needles for a biopsy report. I could sure use someone to talk to to. That is why I come here, because I do get help and so can you. ginnie