What a month...................

my eldest son turned 20.............[and is to become a father in August].....my youngest son tuned 18 yesterday,,,,,,,,,,,,,University in September [god willing]

Me...................i gave training to 40 staff [1-day] three weeks ago..............then 25 homeless clients for a full week the week after..................

I then read Alffes post on hypersensitive people..........wohhhhh

For those who by now know me.......im definitively volatile........to say the least......if ever i have offended it was never intentional........always.... my words were written with care and hope for a conclusion to your concerns...........
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-7oTlUZImTw&feature=fvst

So why i am i writing this?...............

It is a long tine since i joined this community...and i would not be alive without it...............
but i am exhausted truly exhausted by such saddness............which utterly consumes my waking day...........................i try by the minute to make my existence mean something................so that my survival means ...............SOMETHING TO OTHERS

Hear me now............ suicide is not the exit of this thread..............this is just a farewell from cyber space ..................a break i need [and one.. maybe many of you need.this ...TOO................you must be sick to death of my songs...& drunken rants....]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ML_-d-UFOkg

I struggle with my emotions at the best of time............but today i just cant stop crying,,,,,,,,,,,,is it that my kids are now adults and i feel redundant,,,,,,,,,is it because i continue to worry for them as young adults..............is it my life that's been on hold for 20 years and now i am awake...i don't honestly know........

my job has taken a different path and hopefully a god one training those i truly hope to inspire and empower.........[but as last week proved this drains me...............]

thank you for all of your support and advice over the years........again my sincere apologies if i upset you in any way..............

if anyone would like to e-mail me now and then send me a pm..........i'll get right back to you//

couldn't resist this finale..........
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xfF25gxllfg


David

What can I possibly say dear man....you need to take your own great advice and take care of YOU. Take a break, take as long as you need...we will be here sending you positive thoughts for peace in your life.

I cannot imagine that you have offended anyone..you are much too kind.

In your line of work, it's easy to "burn out"...you care and that in itself takes a toll.

David. Take care of yourself there.
You'll never be redundant, but I do understanding what you mean having felt that myself from time to time esp. when my children became adults.

Take care David.

If you feel like dropping by occasionally to let us know you're doing OK, then you'd be welcomed with open arms.

Congratulations on your upcoming grandfatherhood...... something wonderful to look forward to.

You'll be missed but you need this "down time." We'll keep touch.

David,
My friend and fellow music lover...never failing to find the perfect song just when I need to hear it the most! I always feel like you have to be my brother from other parents as it seems there are many times your words are what my heart needed to hear, even when I didn't want to listen!

Please take all of the time you need! TAKE CARE OF YOU!!!!!

There is a song called Stronger by Kelly Clarkson (I can't link as I am on my NOOK Tablet) that made me think of you earlier.... give it a listen if you get a chance.

I'll buzz you from time to time and you can buzz me too if you like )

Abbie

A huge decision - proud of you there David!! This is about you! Be strong for you... and know that you give more than you give yourself credit for!

You won't be far from our thoughts and I'm glad we can have the email connection - thanks for that!

You are going to love being a grandparent - I'm thrilled for you!

I felt like coming back to this thread today.... read your words again ((David)) ... and played your music links at the same time.

You mean a lot to me - you have given a perspective that I needed to see. You have taught me a lot.

You are never going to stop being a parent David - you will never be redundant in your sons' lives.

Live in the moment! You are amazing! I hope you read this! Addy

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hRpGYN7C0qk&feature=fvst

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Thank you Alffe!

Remember David.... What Doesn't Kill Us Makes "US" Stronger!!