My roommate has been going to her groups and even switched counselors because she felt like the first one didn't understand her.She has also been sent to another all day IOP thing.

But I am really strugling. I told her I was her friend through thick and thin but I'm not sure I can take much more. I feel guilty and like I lied to her but I am coming undone and fustrated.

I feel horible! she has been there for me through my TBI and during my recovery. I just don't feel strong enough to keep holding her up when I'm just now at a place to hold my self up.

My neurophycologist says that the underlining feeling to my fustration is anger at her for what she tryed to do. He's right I'm hurt and ****** that she would do something so selfish and not acknowledge how she betrayed our friendship and hurt me.

I want to be here for her until she reaches her recovery I'm afraid I can't make the journey with her and this makes me feel like crap.

You have to take care of yourself FIRST!

Things are getting worse and she isn't taking all her meds!! I talked with her mom about hospitalizing her.

It's been 3 months and according to her things aren't getting any better, I'm delutional for beleiving there is a God and no one not even her mom knows who she really is.

I'm getting closer and closer to being done with her.

You must let go of the guilt. You are risking pulling yourself down to a place that you don't deserve to be. It might sound heartless; but; God is watching over you and letting you know what you need to do for yourself. God permits these things to happen; but gives us free will. You can't make her do what she needs to do for herself.

I will be praying for her, as well as you. You need the strength and courage to do what you must.

(Ger)