oops... sorry Lonely1 ... I started another wonder thread without finding this one first!

my bad

not bad...still wondering if Lonely1 is reconsidering a kitty??

LOL... um... Lonely1...
I wonder... would you like to lay charges for harassment... we're trying to smother you with love...!

I wonder if I can say that, no, I will still not be getting a cat.

I wonder why I get headaches so often and why Ibuprofin doesn't do anything.

I wonder if I was never meant to live in this world, every aspect of my life works in exactly the opposite direction as it should.

I wonder if there will ever be a day when I want to get out of bed. Today was my day off and I was in bed for a full 12 hours. The only reason I got up was I started getting a headache, and my pillow wasn't soft enough to make it feel better.

I wonder that my one and only friend will be moving away soon. (I call her a friend even though we've spoken exactly twice in the last two years, and I don't remember the last time I actually saw her.) But now I won't even be able to pretend that I have a friend.

I wonder if I'm too accepting of death. My own personal deathwish has jaded me from the fact that most people don't want it.

I wonder that I can tell what T.V. show my neighbor is watching from the noise I can hear through my wall...

I wonder if I can tell Lonely1 that I kind of have an understanding of him not wanting to live.

I wonder that I am not actively seeking death but if it were to happen... I'd be ok with that.

I wonder that I have a couple of friends...but it's like they call me only when they need something kind of friends...so, should I really call them my friends?

I wonder that all I want to do is sleep...but I can't. Can't eat or drink either. Think I've lost over 30 pounds in the last 3 weeks.

I'm going to wander away... Oh, to whomever who it was that wondered if anyone had heard from David...I have. He contacted me after my niece's passing and a couple of times since. He's doing ok.

I may be in and out of here...but I may take a break also... if you want you can email me..pm me I will give you my email if you wish.

Thanks to all of you for helping me get through the past few weeks...I have a long way to go...I'm not sure I will ever be "normal" again. I've never felt this kind of pain....not sure this kind of pain ever heals.


Abbie

OH my goodness Abbie... I don't know what to say... I'm so sorry you're feeling such grief (((((gentle hugs)))))))... it is very understandable. Please know that you're loved !!!


and Lonely1... I understand you, too, buddy... I just wish I could make things better for you

I wonder that it takes a lot of courage to be where you both are today.

I wonder where that book came from??? It appeared on my post to mbrook.....

I wonder how much better I feel when I'm busy....too busy to think maybe??

I wonder how glad I am to know that David still reads here...ty Abbie and I hope you will find some peace soon.