Oh, dear Abbie... your shoulder sounds very painful - have you ever heard of "frozen shoulder"...? I know that the pain from that can be unbearable - I truly hope even a drop-in clinic could help you? I know its different where you live (I'm in Canada), but surely a regular doctor can see you need help.

I'm glad you still have a few months of meds... its happened to me, before... where I would break my pills in half... until I could get some again... withdrawal sucks big time

I've cleaned up all my paperwork... and am breathing a sigh of relief. Work winds down now, for 2 months... and I'm looking forward to some sunny days at the pool (we've had a horrible WET spring - a lot of floods in the province of BC right now and more storms expected).

Some of you may have seen I posted in the BiPolar forum... I am feeling like I should delete the thread. Its had a lot of readers... but none that can relate to me and say they know my path, ... wonderful support, tho.. blows me away. I was hoping I could start up a conversation with those who have had similar experiences. I'll keep the thread there... it may help someone some day... I know it helps me.

I'm going to watch Grand-Addy have her swim lesson tonight... then bring her back here for a sleep-over. yay!

I want to now sort out the boxes of stuff in my bedroom... oh, its a big job... but I know I can do it!

Have fun tonight!!

Oh I believe in this!!! And in you dear Addy.

Thinking of all of you!!!!

Since we are all scattered far and wide I worry....

Are you and yours safe from the fires in Colorado?? or
the other fires that are getting less media attention??

Are you able to get to a cool spot in the areas where the
temperatures are 100F degrees or more??

Have you dried out from the floods in Florida??

It's 102F here... i'm okay, in the air conditioner. Worried about a high-school friend who lives near the fire zone in Colorado...I can't reach her.

Much love & hugs to all,
Abbie

Thanks Abbie ........... I've been worrying about people too.
Here, right now - it's 108*. 108* a record.
I am so fortunate to be safe and cool here in my little condo with the a/c running.
On a bird feeder just outside my window I saw a goldfinch with his mouth open and holding his wings away from his body.

Wow... I'm so sorry for all these horrific weather conditions! Where I live, we just haven't had any decent weather... we know we'll wind up with heat one of these days but in the meantime, many rivers are rising and folks are being evacuated and losing their homes. (BC)

((((Alffee)))) thanks

Grand-Addy is here for a couple nights sleepover... we've had a grand time! My

Can I scream out a little more frustration?!?!
Was supposed to have an appt @ noon with my therapist....her office is approx 20 miles NE of my house. I got a phone call @ 11:37am that my appt had to be pushed back to 1pm. I was less than 5 miles from her office.

I thought, well ok.... I'll stop at McDonald's and grab a little lunch. Just as I was leaving around 12:40ish, I got another call saying that my appt had been pushed back 2pm. That means I wouldn't get out until 3pm at best and if my therapist was running on time.

I had already promised my niece that I would take her to work @ 4pm. Most times this would be no problem but to travel the 20 miles it's taking close to an hour due to construction of a new highway. I wasn't going to make her late because my therapist couldn't get her stuff together. I had to cancel my appointment.....not what I wanted----nor needed.

Are there days when a cancelled appointment feels like a lifeline was thrown, caught, and when pulled on for safety it had been cut? I find that happens. Last week the counsellor I see told me he has been promoted and that I would now be seeing someone new. Wow! So my struggle was that I have found having that appt each week seems like a safety net to me. A definite time when I can talk about how I am thinking. That counsellor understands that the psych ward has not been a super place for me to be. So it has been relatively safe for me to talk about suicidal thinking. Now how will it be with the new person? When the beast is here and I want to talk about it, will this new counsellor have me commited as the old one did in the beginning? This has me feeling some trepidation. Especially right now. Last appointment is this Thursday with the old counsellor. The new one will be there too.

Breath. Get out of bed and DO something.

Zenda... when you have your next (last) appointment, tell him about your feelings... he can prepare you for what's next.

Hang in there... we're here if you need us!

Good Advice Addy, Thanks!