[SadSam]

Just this week my mom tried to commit suicide! I can't even start to work out how I feel about this. Anger was the first and so far strongest emotion but since then I seem to have lost touch with my feelings altogether.

There is a lot of depression in my family. While drinking one night my sister started trying to commit suicide but luckily came to her sences before making the real attmpt but she was tied to the rope which was tied to the balcony railing and she was on the wrong side of the railing, so that it what I mean by "close" to doing it.

I was also drinking when I made my feable attempt. My sister and I got into a fight and my husband went looking for her so I was alone when I popped 8 sleeping pills not realizing that was insufficient to do the job.

Both my attempt as well as my sisters are secrects from everyone but our husbands and each other. But since my Mom's very real attempt I am fearful that she or one of us will try again! What do I do because I am in S.A. and can't afford therapy.

[Alffe]

Hi SadSam and welcome to our "family". Not talking about it, won't fix it nor make it go away. We call it the elephant in the room...everyone knows it's there but no one wants to acknowledge it....it's big!

Who are we? And why do we hang out here?

Some of us have lost a loved one to suicide...some of us are feeling so crushed by life that we want it to end.

We come together for support..we count on each other to pick us up, dust us off and give us a reason to try some more.

We don't judge people in this forum and we ask not to be judged ourselves.
When you share here, we promise to listen with our hearts

[BlueMajo]

Hi Sam !

So glad to see you find our family You will be understood and loved here

So sorry to read you are dealing with this... I have tried too, and failed....

I dont know if I will sound silly, but, why would you like to do it ? is there any reason ?? sometimes it is just an endogenous feeling...

Talk to us.

Love,
Majo.

[Jomar]

Many people I know are stopping all drinking for various health reasons or just because..

Maybe alcohol is a strong trigger for those in your family, and stopping that might be a large key in feeling better.

Some people just can't handle/process alcohol.

[Alffe]

Is there a suicide support group in your town SadSam? Do you have a Pastor you could talk to?

[Jomar]

We have some sticky threads up at the top of the list - here is one of them -
http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/thread238.html

You may find some helpful information for you & your family members in them.