Hey everyone. December 2012 ... has brought some challenges into my life.

What I'm finding to be quite amazing is that its NOT bringing me down... depression, for the most part, is lurking and has only become full-blown for a day at the most. NO thoughts of suicide... however, there have been some thoughts that make me understand why people, when very tired and sick ... give in and close their eyes.

At the end of November the company I work for lost a huge contract which resulted in my losing a huge portion of my income. I'm resourceful and have managed to keep myself afloat... opportunities and gifts keep coming my way.

Then this month, I was diagnosed with Diabetes 2.

A friend of mine, on Facebook, invites friends to write a Haiku every Friday... this is what I wrote today:

My doctor is watching me closely (no pricking myself) - regular appointments, blood tests, diet and exercise changes and a support group are now on my plate.

Baby steps....

always baby steps.

thanks for being here everyone!

You're meeting all your challenges Addy - yay strong women!!

Its bloody hard, at times, isn't it, Barbo?

Today the sun shone a lot... I knew I should get outside and walk but instead, I started cleaning up little areas of my home... I've been here almost 3 years... which means 3 years since losing Mom and 3 years since having my oldest son back in my life...

I'm really making my home a home... I'm staying put... I haven't stayed that long in one place for a long... long time...

I felt good when the clouds came back... they reminded me to slow down... and as I always say... I took

baby steps....

I'm going to a Christmas concert tonight... to watch people sing

Yes it does get hard but I just keep putting one foot ahead of the other. Singing is good!

Singing brings heart of light
Challenge burst forth, mind unlocked
Tiny steps heightened thus



Inching away from the brink, life becomes far more vivid
opening eyes which were squeezed shut because the emotional wreck
was far too hard to bear
this I found to be restorative when I decided a solitary mountain top
experience
was not to be mine and should be a lesson instead
so my family was embraced anew
career in shambles because body broken
became so much more strong for the challenge
when I had restored focus
and left terminal ideas aside
thus blessed I yearn to bless.

Mark56

Mark...You are a blessing in all of our lives.

Mark.. thanks so much for sharing that!!!
Addy

One of our son in laws was able to reverse his diagnosis of diabetes with very careful dieting. He is now free of pills.....but..we recently noticed an increase in his weight...is he going down that path yet again??

And baby steps for sure! Will our David ever "pop in"???

Alffe, my doc said its not reversible (unless its just what they call the "onset" of diabetes)... however, it IS controllable. The goal is go to change bad diet and exercise (or lack of) habits. That, in time, can keep sugar levels down ... and sounds exactly what your son in law has done. Weight gain is definitely not a good thing ... it what we all know... its what most of us struggle with as we get older.

Last night I was gifted a tin of home-made cookies... damn!

Re: David... I'm sure happy to see photos of his grandson on Facebook - what a doll-boy!!