we love you dear friend. :grouphug::grouphug:

Honey

There is so much I want to say, But i will keep it short for now! As you know my Mom has AZ......It is an UGLY UGLY UGLY disease....She is not MOM anymore, Mom is gone. I mourn her daily!!!

I wish I could have lost her when she was still Mom. I still remember her as she was, But, I am afraid before she passes all I will remember is the shell of herself that she has become.

Your friend left you all when it was right for her.........how frightning it must be to know you will soon forget all you knew and all people you knew. My heart breaks for my Mom.

I too assisted my Aunt a few years back, terminal cancer......I felt no shame , no regret......I feel bad for her family, but she had the right to choose how and when it was her time!!

Love you

I am at work so have limited time........I could write a book!!! LOL:hug:

Oh BMW
 

In the realization of the weakness of self there is strength to be found, from within, from blessings, from those of us around you who love and support. Hey, kinda like when I have written of DARK things in the SCS forum, I was laying bare the reality of my spirit so the story of my experience would not be skewed..... but more so the real for all who gather there. In this, there is ability to be covered over by support and love from those who on T.N. love you deeply.

You are, have been, and shall continue to be a Dear Friend to any who are privileged to call you thus. I feel privileged. I am blessed you are one of my friends. AND, you give of yourself without pause.... thus we are all blessed.

Uh huh,
Mark56:hug:

For now I guess it is ... what she left behind good memories and her kids and family. so that is what i will hanging on to. and yes it is true that as much as she wanted us to remember her full of love and full of life she too wished to be able to remember us full of love and full of life. without sad faces and So decided to send a little box up to her kids . I guess the answer or light is to just care and try to help somebody in some small way . but right now i feel like a huge change with lots of things in my life/myself. That is about the size of little ol me right now. off to lurk mode . thanks everyone for the wise words caring and support. blessings for the room.
PEACE
BMW

(((BMW))) Please give yourself time to grieve this loss. Those good memories will come when the pain lessens. :hug:

Oh, my (((marshmallow-friend))), I, too, love you! :hug:
The support here is what you need and you are only human to care and have these feelings of sadness and remorse...
Sure, you made choices... but in the end, it was your girlfriend's choice... as sad as it was, it was right for her :(

I hope that you can take your wonderful memories of her... look at her pictures, listen to her favourite music and mourn your loss with gratitude for having had her in your life. Yes, it was far too short... disease is ugly and cruel. Her memories will last forever.

I feel so sad for your pain :grouphug:

And this is so much the stuff of support on these pages.... coming alongside to help others grieve pain, loss, suffering, and all

m56